我在馬桶上找回想法

總覺得追趕人生太匆忙，

連前面的一階沒看到就踏上

連未嚼完的食物就要嚥下

還有那聽不完的歌，未完成的小說

真的沒有人在意，各人適應這種態度，把日子都趕快完成

過一天是任務，還是看春過秋來雨換雪的時分

我從現實走岀去，卻未能完全灑脫，最後又敗給現實

我等了花落多久，花欲在身後飄下，但願我能多退幾步，多看點

欲要埋藏枯萎的時間，卻怕泥濘使人難堪

欲要收集晨早的露水，卻滴土壤滋潤花兒

錯過了，卻久久不捨回頭

這是最後一次，再下一次定必要享受陽光的恩澤

莫等焜黃華葉衰時，頻頻再眍盼那不再來的春天

西西弗斯的石頭為苦難的源頭 亦是幸福的踏板

石頭是他推的 說是懲罰 倒不如說為了一個希望

或許有一次它終於立在山頂

如果沒有它 沒有衝破耐力的西西弗斯

西西弗斯和石頭彼此磨合 尋找苦難中的意義

想跟我心裡的西西弗斯說一句 加油 快樂地推石

送給我心裡的西西弗斯

山頂的陽光穿透汗水，一秒間汗水滴下，化作石頭上的陰影

堅毅和努力總能把它推上擺脫之地

但它總要留戀那山下的青青平原

希望石上長岀小花  以告知盼望不只在那遙不可及的山峰

哪怕這一輩子也要往往返返  只要有你為我絕處撐開那傘

Thanks to Hon Pro and all stuff bothering around me, I keep my life fruitfulling after internship.

And I start thinking more, learning more and being more proactive.

What sometimes lingering my thoughts is the how others opt their lives

Having grown up, I relized the world is more complicated than I expected

and people could have a bunch of choices to opt from this colourful and at the same time evil world

Some choose to be neglectful, some to live as full as possible, some to be easy-going

I once thought that I cant accept those which totally voilate my codes

but I am awaken by realizing love realy rules out everything

Each step backward of mine represents a heartful bless and faith on decisions made by my closest ones

I sometimes found my grievance though in these uneasy leaps

esp. for some decisions/ lifestyle of the intimate one

He might know nothing about my anxiety, disappointment, worries, repress on emotions, and degree of accomadation for the attitudes he opted for

Indeed, I feel content when seeing every conversations we made on this topic can finally turn into a little improvement in him

but I still didnt get the point that he is still reserving his effort and potential for not taking a greater attempt

I am really tired of urging, complaining, and discussing about this, and that now accomodation is the second last step which I am doing

A greater change maybe done by him; or it will be in status quo; or I will adapt in this; or I can't bear this...

I have been thinking this the whole month and I hate to say this cuz I have never expected it will come to an end and I am so sorry for saying this

-- breaking up will be the last resort 

This month drove me crazy though it would not be anthing better than sinking all the thoughts and ideas
Opportunites and disappointment showed up alternatively as flowers in their bloom and fade
Seeds germinate, moon waxes, sunlight decades, men grow.
Nature follows its nature, men follow the trend.
Some people tumble and fall after take their small leaps. Some reach their golden era.
You may be in the valley once, but you can be on top the next day.
It is up to your courage of taking risk, to try and shouldering the responsibilities.
It is your life though, but remember to include me and lemme be with you.