judy 於 2009-02-28 11:39 PM 發表：

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I FOUND MYSELF ALWAYS ANGRY WHEN WE'RE IN f2...I'M ANGRY WITH ALMOST EVERYTHING...TO MYSELF-I ANGRY WHY I'M ANGRY, to E-mates...why every body can find their circle so soon that they seems to find their happiness in their class and have fds and forgot the old ones...but i can't..i just hate the 2B..i guess u'll know what scorpion think about hating...we can hate everything so easily that i 竟然 hate the E-amtes when they're happy with their new classmates...katirna with candice, three guys(ken, jaffe and william) with the girls...u with the fds and herman with some girls in his own class...i just hate u all, really...i'm really sorry ...i'm the one who just don't try to get in the new environment...u guys 表面地try to get in the environment but i just can't see u guys' heart at first ...i thought u all forgot me..i cry so much that i often don't pay attention on class...i guess that makes me have poorer result...luckily. i knew that u all didn't forget me...and we're real fds...i'm so glad..and happy....i'm sorry i'm angry to u all at first...i didn't mean it,i just can't help with it
besides...i'm afraid that u guys will change...change into better shapes and forget the old ones...just because of what aaron said to me in the F2 year:
如果不作出改變, 我們大家就只會停留在中一了
想要成長,說話/言行都要三思
要進步
要成長
所以
無目的/無意義的說話
就不必說了
因為大家都需要成長
所以說= =
我那番話是極無目的的
所以說了對大家都無益處
回想一刻,罷了
把時間留下作別更有意義的事更好
當然不是說.跟你聊天是無意義
只是.我那番話無目的和很無聊
不長大
心智都永遠會停留在幼稚的階段
就是幼稚>成熟
如果無意義的說話
說了出去,對自己/對象都沒有任何改變
那,說之有何用?
何不另作更有意義的事
對了
安裝了一些東西,要把電腦重新啟動
先掰了
其實我想跟你說的就是
不必那麼執著,而且報復也不合你的作風嘛

你看
很無聊吧
沒.
只是聖誕假的一個獨處
想到了中一的幼稚
跟小學的無聊
所以我希望作出改變
恐怖嗎
我倒是覺得
永遠待在幼稚的心智
那更恐怖(from aaron)

我…不要…失去你們
人慢慢長大…失去自己了…(my reflection)
actually...that's me who lost myself because of anger...

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judy 於 2009-02-28 11:14 PM 發表：

Hey guys, count me in!!
tommy, whether what happen, u're always my best fd~
Besides, i'm just thinking the same thing in the past few years...i always think that i'm always not the inner one in a team...just everyone's in, and i'm out..i think that no 小圈子 that i can go in and there's no such team that want me in and like me in. But...thx to 1E mates, i felt the only happy moment when i go up to F2...i always cry and cry and cry..i don't like 2B at all...i hate going back to school..i used to like to go to school so much when i was F1..even in the holidays...i just missed u guys so much that i don't even want the holidays at all...i just want to be with u all...and i like to go to school sososososo much...i feel like i'm in a team...that everyone will need me and everyone inside to make it complete..i don't ever feel that way in 2B...NEVER...and i just used to laugh so so so so much everyday..i enjoy every moment in my life...it's just the best year ever in my life...i found someone like me and treat me as i'm important...so i just hate going to F2...i cry too much that when i knew we guys in 1E team is going to different class...i just want we're always in F1..after going to F2..i just wish everyday that everyone in 1E will not change...at least the students in our 'kai'team(katrina, herman, tommy, ken, judy, jaffe, william, (jason?), joe, leo, (eric?), (kelvin chau?),(richman?))...but i too found that everyone is changing in the team...we may still so love the team but we just have to get into other teams in the dfr classes...i saw others are so happy with their new fds and my heart is just broken at first....after half year...i just saw that we in the team ...everyone is just pretend to be happy with the other guys all the time but actually...inside the deepest in our heart...we just miss the other ' kai' members so much and afraid the other 'kai'people in the team will also change and we'll not be acceptable in our 'kai' team..so we pertend that we've get in to the other team and let out a message is that called the other 'kai'members not to be worried...ANYWAY...i felt really happy one day when it's the morning assembly time when it's in F2...MANY 'kai' 1E-mates just came over and we're talking about our result in F2...(include katrina, jaffe, william, judy, ken, joe, (jason?)...i forgot..)we're in a team again and we aloud no one who's not our 1E-mates to get inside and join our conversation...i'm being care of the E-mates and i feel myself so important...i wish u're there too and herman....
ANYWAY...the most important thing is....U'RE ALWAYS IN OUR TEAM!NO MATTER U'RE SO FAR FROM US IN THE REALITY, BUT U'RE TOO INSIDE THE TEAM IN THE DEEPEST IN OUR HEART AND U'LL NEVER BE REPLACED!
U MAY THINK THAT U DON'T GET AS EQUAL TO HOW MUCH U GIVE OUT...BUT THIS IS LIFE...JUST DON'T MAKE URSELF SO TIRED ABOUT THIS...U'VE MAKE UR BEST TO CHANGE AND THE MOST IMPORTANT IS...U WILL NOT REGRET OF WHAT U PAY OUT...
BESIDES....EVERY ONE HAS HIS OR HER OWN TALENT...U MAY NOT FIND IT OUT AT THE MOMENT BUT IT WILL SOON SHOW OUT ITSELF...NO MATTER U HAVE SOME TALENTS THAT IT'S NOT USEFUL TODAY ...BUT IT WILL SOON SHOW WHAT IT CAN DO FOR THE WORLD...BESIDES...WE'LL ALWAYS THINK THAT IT'S THE BEST TALENT IN THE WORLD THAT U'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS THAT TALENT! IN OUR'KAI' TEAM...EVERYONE HAS THE MOST SPECIAL TALENT IN THE WORLD~AND EVERYONE IS THE BEST IN OUR TEAM!!
BE ~ CONFIDENT !
WE HAVE FAITH IN YOU!!!!!!!
AND WISH WE'LL NEVER CHANGE IN OUR DEEPEST HEART...THAT WE'RE ALWAYS IN A TEAM...AND BESIDES...I WILL LET NO ONE ELSE GETS IN OUR TEAM....SORRY IF U WANT SOMEONE IN(MAYBE U THINK THAT BUT MAYBE U'RE NOT, JUST DON'T CARE THAT IF U DON'T THINK IT)

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Visional 於 2008-11-15 10:42 PM 發表：

hey
我依家真係好唔開心`
關於bleach的,,
只有你先明`

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Visional 於 2008-11-14 07:54 PM 發表：

其實我都曾經有過類似ge念頭。
但係我唔開心會同人講,,
只係...
當升上form 2,,
融入唔到2a ge圈子果時,,
我搵人傾。
我冇搵sumi,,
因為一早佢唔再同我fd,,
我冇搵你,,
因為我由form 1開始就覺得你唔同左,,
令我覺得好陌生。
我搵左張浩銘,,
當時我仲未可以好sure我對佢冇feel.
佢答應做我ge forever fd.
我時不時都會同佢講下2a ge野。
但係我發現我搵佢果時,,
佢都同2c人玩得好開心。
我認為我要開始重新搵過晒d fd.
我e+同candice好fd
同judy更加fd.
其實你同我一樣,,
都係搵緊自己ge定位,,
我地好迷惘,,
覺得冇人明我地諗咩,,
有苦自己知,,
自己同同年ge朋友會好唔同,,
大家都玩得好high果時,,
我地卻會叫人calm down.
我睇完你呢篇日誌,,
發現你原來冇變。
就像當我獨自走在迷宮,,
一個人突然走:"我也是迷路了,,我們一起走吧。"

朋友,,
我們一起走吧!!

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