昨晚同dicky傾計..........連佢都唔幫我啦~好唔開心呀~連最後一個機會都冇賣,,,,,,,,,我諗我今次真係要放棄啦!!!!!!!!唔放棄都唔~特然有一種想介手的感覺!!!!!!!好想好想咁做!!!!!!我一路聽歌一路喊..........喊喊吓........仲攞左把介刀出黎............諗左好耐.......我好唔好做呢>>>>>>>>>但最後都係介左.......原本諗住介個字.........一係就個小字.........一係就係個鵬字.......但最後都冇介到只係介左3條直線........唉..........好灰呀~成晚冇訓過係咁諗野..........我決定左我放棄小鵬啦~好耐冇試過介手啦..........今次竟然係因為呀哥而介...............仲好似之前咁冇食過野........一食野,,,,,,,,,,,,也會將食過的野嘔番出黎.........冇心機上堂.......每晚都係咁喊...........冇咩訓過覺...........成日都係呆呆咁.............呢個就係之前傷心的小琦~
番到學校我冇理過小鵬,,,,,,,,,,一句野都冇講過...........我好唔習慣咁樣的生活呀..........係中史堂我同佢sd左d野...........果時的覺得我唔會再有可能做番佢呀妹嫁啦............真係好傷心好想喊........係咁問自己咁樣做會好好咩>>>>>>>但我冇得簡.........我真係面對唔到佢...........點樣面對佢都係唔得..........好心痛..........係我搞到呀哥咁唔開心嫁..........真係好後悔呀.........好想喊.......我今次真係冇左個呀哥啦............好憎自己咁做呀..........點解好地地一個咁好的呀哥唔要.........而走去咁搞到自己咁心痛,,,,,,,,,,咁傷心wo~我真係好傻呀.........黃凱琦你知唔知你好""土嚴""呀~放lunch果時一出去就見到佢.........我唔咁望佢.......我好怕我會當住佢面前喊呀.........好快咁走啦...........去左toilet喊............好心痛呀.........不過係自己攞黎的~係自己衰,,,,,,,,,,,,之後同清落去四樓.......點知又見到佢..........我冇理呀清就自己一個咁走左去啦~唉.........唔想見到佢,,,,我怕我真係會忍唔到喊左出黎呀~每次見到佢我都好快咁走啦~成日上堂都冇咩心機.........只知到自己個心好心痛..........好憎自己呀,,,,,,,,,到左放學,,,,,,,,,見到佢走,,,如果係之前的話,,,,,,,,佢會話等一等我我上去放左d野就搵你.........佢仲會第一時間同我講野........但到左今日已經冇啦,,,,,,,,,好想喊呀..........聽到佢話mouse等賣我呀!!!!!!我聽到真係好唔開心,,,,,,,,好想喊左出黎.......但因為人太多冇喊到!!!!!!!等到呀yuen放左點知佢唔走住,,,,,,,,,,,咁我咪同winnie一齊走囉.........而家仲係覺得得番我自己一個走好唔習慣呀.........之前係會有dicky同小鵬同我一齊走,,,,,,,仲有講有笑添........而家只得我一個人係到喊,,,,,,,,點解我要咁傻............呀..............
其實呢日我真係冇諗過去死嫁..........因為我呢d咁我人唔配留係到,,,,,,,,,,傻傻咁生活,,,,,,,我唔應該出現係呢到............搞到我d朋友咁擔心的!!!!!!!!如果我唔係到的話小杰唔會咁傷心,,,,,,,,,其他人唔會因為我而唔開心,,,,,,,,,,,,我真係好想死呀..........但就係因為小杰的關係搞到我留低左........可能係太愛佢啦~如果我可以同佢分手的話,,,,,,,,,,我一定唔伯再比我自己留係呢個世界上,,,,,,,,,死係一話好唔方法..........
而家開心笑住的我,,,,,,,,,,,
不是惜日開心笑的小琦~
心太痛了.........
令到自己不想再生存落去,,,,,,,,
我話你知如果你一日唔原諒我............
我會每一日介自己隻手一下.......
直到你原諒我為止><""""
小鵬我都知你好憎我嫁啦!!!!!!
sor ar!!!!!!!!搞到你咁.........
其實我好內疚嫁!!!!!!
好掛住惜日同你一齊玩的日子呀~
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