↘☆呢幾掛既日子情況~*

呢幾排呀哥都唔返工...so我開唔到電腦呀~又打唔到日記...勁慘!!

咁呀哥起到..又唔可以同呀傑傾電話..勁掛住佢囉..

但係有時起果幾日呀哥返左工...我又唔敢call呀傑..因為我唔知同佢講咩好....我驚打左比佢仲衰過冇打比佢囉..

我驚我同佢既感情就咁就淡呀...

但係呢..我昨日打比佢..同佢幾好囉...

希望可以一直咁好啦...

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今日..我起學校打今日diary囉..

唔知返到屋企仲可唔可以開電腦呢~

我唔知呀~~呵~~

今日放學打比小傑傑啦~~>"<

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可能啦~~

今日勁累...返到屋企勁想訓..

咁我掛住呀傑...而且我昨日冇同佢傾過..我驚同佢會淡..so就call佢..

咁一開始..我地都好淡咁傾..但係開始就好返小小...希望會越來越好啦~

之後我上左床一路傾一路訓..點知訓著左..

醒返果時..仲拎住個電話放去耳邊..但係佢已經收左線....(*果時訓既時候係差唔多8:00...但係訓到去9:40幾分...)

之後我就落床call佢..同佢講我頭先訓左覺覺豬..佢就話佢知....

我好驚我同佢就咁就淡......

我唔知佢心裹面唸d咩....但我驚佢講既野會hurt到我.....

而且當今日我問佢日記所打既野..佢就話:咁煩架...

果時..真係勁down..佢第一次咁同我講野...

可能佢開始嫌我煩啦..但係我真係好愛佢....

我唔想佢食煙..and食果d.........我想佢介左佢....

但係我驚佢會嫌我煩...我真係唔想再同佢鬧交啦....

前日...佢提出分手...我個心已經好痛....

佢日記既解釋..就係:佢亂咁打...睇下佢d fd有咩反應...

我覺得呢個答案...好咩囉...

但係我唔想同佢鬧交..可能真係咁呢...我要學識信任佢...唔可以太多疑慮...

我今日問佢..你愛唔愛我!?

佢就話:乜你咁都問得出架!!!←←佢呢句勁hurt...佢以前唔會咁架..

可能真係比瀚賢講中左..男仔真係唔鍾意佢條女問佢呢d野...

咁我咪話:咁唔問囉...之後我唔出聲..佢問我係咪嬲...我話唔係..

其實我真係唔係嬲佢...只係佢hurt到我ja....

上次岩岩做心理測驗...我同呀傑..原本係成日疑慮大家...唔夠信任...遲早會散..

我now不斷咁叫自己..唔好再咁多疑慮...要信佢.....

總知..我愛佢啦~~>3<~

今日同呀傑差d散....

我唸如果唔係我永不放棄既精神..就散左啦..

估唔到呀傑同我講分手既時候..個反應仲激過家威果時...

塊面仲紅過蕃茄....隻眼又腫哂...又紅喎~~

差d為佢而死..

果時我唸..如果佢話分..我就介手...(講真喎....有幾次真係放到隻手到...但係佢唔答我.....)

不過有小小血囉...唔係介出黎架..係喊果時....整親....

最後都冇事...

但係果時真係好暈..頭痛..眼痛..胃痛..m痛..背隻痛..又眼訓..又心痛←佢令我咁....

今日我又同呀傑鬧交交啦...

係因為佢同佢fd傾電話都唔同我傾...哼~>0<但係最後都係冇事....

今日本來豬兜宜黎架..但係佢媽咪又唔比佢黎..so佢冇黎到囉..

自己一個人好悶...因為呀傑d屋企人起哂到..

呀傑傾唔到電話...佢陪唔到我啦~>0<呠呠~

之後好無聊咁過左今日囉..

聽日呀哥又大多數唔洗返工...咁我死得啦~~

真係好掛住呀傑囉...呀哥唔洗返工..咁我咪唔同得佢傾電話..and可能連打日記既機會都冇啦..唉~

今日我全日都係訓覺...

冇打比呀傑....但係當我屋企電話響...我好想係佢打比我..

可惜佢全日都冇打過比我....可能係佢唔掛住我...

又可能佢冇記得有我...我唔知.....

我唔知佢係咪真係愛我....

我睇過佢日記...

唔知係咪我今日冇call佢...

佢都以為唔愛佢呢!!??