2009-10-15
一朝早去左沖涼
一望個鐘....7:45分
唯有成支箭衝去沖啦
又要趕   水又要凍
係咪又係訓練小弟不屈既意志
好  我忍  
等我以為沖得好快之際
竟然聽到"時間黎到八點鐘"呢句.....
我到而家都唔能夠相信我係咪真係沖左咁耐
我書包都未執好
搞到冇帶好多書

尋日果然一如前日所言  要衰就一次過黎
我尋日叫做得好差啦
pa岩岩合格....
睇黎呢一科都真係要放多考落去去追返個作戰狀態番黎
仲要係皇牌黎  .......



我想搵一條登上成功既道路  真係咁難?
我而家就有一個人生最大既遺憾
點解我唔一早醒覺   知道自己既無能呢?
到我而家知道  似是為時己晚
每一次我掙扎之時  就一次又一次既打擊我
有時一樣野唔係要鼓勵  係真係要有實際既行動先可以繼續既
有成績就全最大既強心針
我唔可以再停   要不斷咁做先可以超越人地
我唔願做一個平平凡凡或者被人鄙視既人   一生人挨生挨死為生計
呢種生活好令人沮喪
我要做一個研究生 去幫人姐
呢個係我理想
一個人冇成就呢一生就真係枉過
能為人帶來以後既好處  就死而無憾喇
以前我好鍾意錢   而家己經唔係
咁將來我呢個咁既理想又會唔會轉呢
我驚我會屈服

我好唔快樂  因為我已經冇左個種對佢既喜悅
我仲可以咩做咩呀      醒啦   
喜悅只會帶腐敗 墮落
唔好盡信你班"朋友"講....
我知道你只係一個失敗者
但係你唔可以再改變我呢個想法
再守舊落去結果會轉變咩  唔好咁天真啦
總之唔好咁心急睇個結果   
就會見番你努力呢一個成果
 

 
what am I going to do?
I am so confused
everyone"s abandoned me
it seems that  sinn tak college is no longer a place for my furthering of study
forgive me
I am sorry for using so many boring grammar structure
If I were able ., I would have switched to another better one instead of such damned English
I hate the state of silence
I hate the feeling of inadequacy
I am so lost
what am I  supposed to do
I am really expecting some huge  apparently improvement after days of practises

back to today"s topic
I was in trouble dealing with some technical problems
I am such a computer iliteracy
It took me more than 5hours to have some change
and I didn't succeed in it  finally
JUST PUT it aside


I am ready for the goals