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我好辛苦呀..我唔想再留係呢個家..
我忍夠喇..永遠都係咁..我好唔鍾意亞哥..我好唔鍾意老豆同媽子..
我好想離家出走呀..我唔想再留係到..
如果要咁繼續落去..我死左佢好過喇..我好憎佢地呀..
你地話我不孝都..我都要咁講架喇..我係呢個家..一D都唔開心..
遲早你地或者有一天會見到我上頭條..
話一個女仔因為受唔住家人俾佢嘅壓力..自殺死鬼左..
我唔係講笑架..如果唔係我怕死..我諗我一早自殺死左..
之前係就係有D唔鍾意..但係今日我真係忍夠喇..你地成日話對我點好點好..
但係我一D都唔覺得你地對我好囉..以下或者就係嘅..
但係而家..我一D都唔覺得佢地關心我囉..佢地成日都唔信我..
亞哥愈黎愈過份囉..之前或者我都有多有少覺得佢錫我..
但係而家..我一D都唔覺得佢當我係佢個妹囉..
我知佢心內面唔想要我呢個妹..而且佢可能冇當過我係妹..
佢日日都鬧我餐勁嘅..老豆又係..亞媽又係..我唔想留係呢到..
我呢排都已經夠唔開心架啦..係學校..有D FD 陪住..講真..
係學校..你地唔會覺得我唔開心..冇錯..就算我唔開心..
我都係會笑住..或者係D FD 啦..佢地陪住..冇諗咁多嘢..
而且..我唔會係佢地面前喊..就算再唔開心..都唔會..
返到屋企..會諗到好多嘢..好多嘢煩..返到去..對住D功課..對住部電腦..
對住4面牆..已經夠煩架啦..仲要俾亞爸亞媽煩..
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琴日亞哥已經串爆我喇..我地去左青衣城食飯啦..之後我
去左買鞋,,本身係好開心嘅..但係之後買到差唔多9點..
我先去食飯..佢地都係到等啦..我知我遲左好多..俾人鬧係應該嘅..
但係我真係好唔鋸亞哥囉..佢係到話:[ 講啦..有咩好講呀..你唔係好想嘢講嘅咩..
講啦..你好多嘢講架之前..而家冇嘢好講喇!]
算..我已經忍佢架啦..成程食飯ER都冇ER多聲..我唔想同佢嘈咋..
次次嘈親都喊..唔通今次又係咁多人面前嘈牙!? 我俾面佢先唔嘈咋..
你估我唔想講嘢架..佢仲要激起我把火!!
佢次次都係咁架啦..之前我叫佢幫我print d 嘢..佢都唔肯..
好似講到要我俾返printer's 墨 d 錢佢咁..我心諗..兩兄妹..
佢洗唔洗同我計到咁牙..之後我咪話佢..[你而家係咪要我俾返錢你呀!?]
之後佢就勁大聲咁罵我喇..次次係都要搞到我喊..佢都冇當過我係佢個妹!!
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今日..俾老豆係咁爆粗鬧到我飛起..我又唔係做錯左D咩..
只不過係開電腦玩姐..咁都有錯!?洗唔洗咁呀..
佢又有冇當我我係佢個女架!? 點解可以咁對個女架..
佢同亞媽話我唔陪佢地飲茶..又鬧..我頂佢地唔順喇..唔陪咪唔陪囉..
我不嬲都唔鍾意飲茶架啦..你迫我都冇!!咁都要鬧!? 仲話我冇人性..
你地知唔知人性點解架..唔好濫用啦..我咁就叫冇人性牙!?
好,,我都死忍..我帶住MP3聽歌..當咩都聽唔到@@
食飯=] 我汁埋D嘢..一陣姐..亞哥又鬧喇..
佢話:[你係咪好鍾意係食飯之前做D嘢牙!?] 喂..我而家又唔係做咩..
人地食飯講電話TIM啦..都俾..我唔知我做錯D囉..有咩咁件事姐..
之後佢又攞返琴日買鞋黎講:[ 你仲特別鍾意食飯之前買鞋tim!!做咩呀..
冇聲出牙* 你唔係好多嘢駁嘅咩..駁丫..做咩唔駁牙!?我就係想聽下你點駁呀!!
講嘢啦..做咩唔講嘢呀下!?..] 佢當自己係邊個呀..老豆同亞媽都未鬧我..
佢出咁多聲做咩..係..佢係我亞哥..鬧我都係應該..
但係我覺得佢唔係鬧囉..我好憎佢咁講..果陣我梗係冇出聲啦..
我唔明..點解我無啦啦會變到咁忍得嘅呢!?點解我唔出聲呢!?
我唔想同佢嘈囉..佢愈係想我駁佢我就唔駁..唔係你當我係咩牙!?
你叫我做咩就做咩咁咪好冇面!? 我又唔係你隻狗!! 你叫我sit我唔會咁聽話囉!!!
佢次次都講到好似好想我出聲咁..唉..我出聲咪盞佢又鬧..
試過啦..我一出聲..係!!串到佢呀..但係佢就大聲又惡咁..野蠻+唔講道理
咁鬧返我..次次都係咁..大聲之嘛!! 係牙..我係驚佢呀*但係你估我
大聲唔到咩..我係唔想同佢嘈咋!!我先冇理佢!!
次次明明係佢地3個無啦啦鬧我..佢地就話我搞到屋企家嘈屋閉!!
痴孖筋架!!我好似係全程無辜+無奈咁..冇做錯( 我唔覺得我做錯左d咩咁大不了囉!!)
就做人鬧到一樣屁果個囉..你而家調返轉頭話我搞到屋企日日都嘈!!
喂..大佬!!你唔鬧我咪唔會搞到咁囉!!我都冇做錯到..係你地食飽飯冇嘢做..
無啦啦走黎鬧我咋..我又唔係做錯D咩..點解次次都話係我錯呀!!
之後佢地又話我成日駁咀..我O晒咀囉..個個細路都駁咀架啦..邊個唔駁架!?
之後..咁我好遲先知..仲要係HAM話俾我知果喎..佢話聽日MEETING[2:00-5:00*]
咁我唔知丫嘛..又冇人同我講過..咁我記得之前講過話聽日學琴學4:30*
咁我咪同亞媽講話唔得囉..諗住調時間啦..亞媽話:[咁你咪唔好返童軍囉!!]
我O晒咀囉..明明學琴唔得同司徒老師講就可以調架啦..咁我睬佢都傻啦..
如果唔返..又要寫信..理由係咩我都諗唔到..唔通寫話因為要學嘢所以唔返一次牙!?
可能嘅..但係我唔會咁寫囉..明明可以調..做咩仲寫信呢!?
我參加咩亞媽都唔鍾意架啦..之前小學又係咁..係佢幫我報果D佢就鍾意我學..
死都要我學果隻..咁我又唔係唔鍾意佢幫我報果D..只係想玩多D嘢姐..
我唔明囉..咁佢又唔俾..佢叫我唔好學我想學果D..咁佢幫我報果D點解又唔可以唔學呢!?
不過我唔會唔學囉..因為幼稚園學到而家..咁多年..洗左咁多洗..
到已經..差少少先黎放棄!? 我唔會囉..
咁有得調我梗係調啦..亞媽唔打..我咪自己打俾司徒老師囉..
咁司徒老師就問我5:30-7:00*得唔得啦..咁我咪問係咪亞哥學5:30*
我學6:15*囉( 因為我亞哥要學樂理..佢次次都同我孖住咁上堂..每人學9個字)
如果係咁就OK啦..咁我咪問亞哥囉..點知..佢係到講話:[我唔得喎*]
之後@我咪話囉..如果好似之後咁學4:15..我學先..咁佢就學5:00*啦..
如果係咁..而家佢學5:30*..差30分鐘之嘛..唔得D咩呀..之後我咪話..
[你唔得D咩呀] 佢:[我點知我唔得D咩呀!? 唔得咪唔得囉!!]
之後我地兩個係咁係到嘈..好興囉我!!得覺得佢愈黎愈過份囉!!
之後佢話:[ 我同你講..我唔得呀!!你得果D我都唔得呀!!我係鍾意同你玩作對牙!!
咁點牙!?唔鋸牙!?你咪唔好返囉!! 你地而家話遲D你咪話你唔得囉!!總之我唔會就你!!]
我發覺佢地3個都一樣咁野蠻囉..佢地根本就唔明!!我咪同佢解釋囉:[人地一早講好左..
話係2-5*但係只係我唔知姐..啱啱先有人同我講..]我都未講完..亞哥又係到鬧我喇..
[咁姐係你問題啦!!姐係你問題啦.....] 我好興囉..最興係佢係到講:[你得果D我都唔得呀!!
我係鍾意同你玩作對牙!!] 我真係好興!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
激到我喊!! 我根本就唔覺得我地似屋企人囉!!我真係好憎佢地!!點解佢地可以咁架..
FINAL=] 係調到時間..但係俾人係咁噴囉!!
之後咁我係部電腦做功課啦..大家記住..係做功課喎!! ( 雖然SOMETIME同人玩下MSN、ICQ....)
但係..咁我係做緊功課丫嘛..之後老豆又鬧喇..我咪唔出聲囉..
我都冇講到嘢啦..你仲想我點呀..之後亞媽鬧我先係到駁之嘛..
亞媽係到話我..成日咁夜先開電腦..又話CHECK咩CHECK咩..又話做功課..
都唔係嘅..咩都等到夜晚做!!我唔明囉..我都係做功課..同問下嘢姐..
咁都唔俾牙!? 咩世界呀!? 又唔知做D咩..都咁!! 我做咩都錯,,我做咩你地先
覺得我啱呀!! 話我駁咀..咁你講得唔啱就駁架啦..
之後老豆聽到啦..就係到講:[X!!嘟嘟!!你係咪要我打XY你嘛!?..] (其實呢句佢今日都講過架喇..)
之後..好慘地..係咁俾人鬧鬧鬧..差唔多日日都俾人鬧架啦!!
之後咪勁喊囉..不過咁又點丫..都冇人會關心我架啦..冇人會可憐..但係我唔洗人可憐囉!!
我唔開心咁又點..開心咁又點..有人會在乎咩!?
就算我有幾唔開心..都冇人會理..冇人會關心..屋企人最多講多話:[ 你自己
攞黎架!!] 算啦..我咩都諗通晒啦!! 一係就繼續唔開心..一係就開開心心咁活..
我簡左開心囉!! 唔開心都冇人會理架啦..咁再唔開心都冇用!!
放心啦..次次喊左..咪咩事都冇發生過囉!!話晒都大家係屋企人..
我信緣份呢家嘢架..做得成一家人..係經過好多世積返黎嘅..所以唔可以計較咁多..
係呢篇日記..講左好多悔氣說話..講真..
離家出走!? 走得去邊..
自殺!? 死左咁又點!?
SO*我決定保持之前一貫作風`XD
[*永遠愛他*`! ﹏×°朋友是一輩子的'*]] | 
2006 年 5 月 5 日 星期五 
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