唉...好多野...當唔開心既時候...都唔知點同人講...

就好似返鄉下咁....

媽咪成日都同人講爸爸走個時發生咩事....

但其實我一D都唔想再提...我唔想再聽到....

我好難先過到呢段日子....

由抑鬱到焦慮....

我好辛苦....我話想有隻狗陪....

陪我又好...陪媽媽又好....

經過一年幾....我終於開始擺脫唔敢早訓既心情....

我終於可以容易D入睡...但係我因為長時間唔敢早訓...所以已經習慣夜訓.....

成日都想逼自己早訓....但係成日都唔成功....總覺得...早訓唔習慣...所以會搵D野做...

哥哥佢地未返...我唔敢返房訓....因為我覺得屋企太空虛...

甚至佢地去度蜜月個時...我要開燈訓覺...

到宜家我都唔敢關門訓覺...但如果有人係我訓左關門就無野....

過左年幾...我先開始可以唔會每晚臨訓前諗起爸爸既事...

我每晚都好想有隻狗仔陪住我...因為狗仔可以無時無刻係我身邊...但人唔可以....每個人都有自己既事要做....

有苦自己知...成日因為夜訓但要早起身...較左N咁多個鬧鐘...

但係因為太夜訓...電話要叉電放得遠...聽唔到鬧鐘聲...

所以嘈到哥哥佢地...我被投訴...

好辛苦...唔係我唔想起身...而係我聽唔到鬧鐘聲...

如果我聽到...我會拎返個電話係自己隔離先賴床...

鬧鐘聲已經較細左....

對上一次發生呢D事...係我有抑鬱個時....所以...我怕...我怕再有抑鬱...

唔知點同人解釋我既事...唔想博人同情...