好耐冇寫了,新一年都係第一次寫日記.
今日係年三十晚,姑姐佢兩位又返黎做團年,唉!講真,我真係唔想過呢d節日,又會好多親人返,又要見到兩個姑姐,因為佢地會好煩,可能佢地會覺得係為我好先係咁同我講同我煩,但係好多事情,都係...講一次兩次已經足夠,講得多就係煩,佢話我點點點見工又話點點點,講左好多次,講真我係要改係要變做一個好積極既人,我自己會自動自覺去改去做,講幾多都冇用,講得多,以我既性格係會更加唔中意,更加唔開心,又點會積極呢?甘本好多野,係佢地唔信我,係...我係冇自信既人,但係佢地成日煩,試問我點會有心情去搵工去積極呢?唉...佢地係度,打機上網都好唔自由,又唔可以好夜晚,除時又要去我老豆間屋訓(我同我嫲嫲住的),唉...我諗仲要頂郅初二晚先可以自由返d了!
自己既精神,身心,都係一日比一日差,心情差到極!唉~~~我既心情可以一陣開心完又要變成唔開心,好多人以為我好幸福好滿足,屋企人都會覺得我應該會係開心至係既!但係佢地成日係諗,我物質上係應該是滿足,但係我心一定係開心?快樂?好多事好多野,佢地可能覺得冇咩野,但係在我心中係一件好唔開心既事...
唉~~~~~~~~~~天呀...天呀...天呀...!!!!!!
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