haiz...

cny is coming tomoro and i still doesnt even feel happy or exited..

in my mind is so full of stuff...

and my heart feel empty..NOTHING..

homework,homework everyday..

haha...

now i remember what teacher say in the class...

teacher say...

if you want to be successfull,

you have to be lonely...

well!

of couse i feel very very LONELY...

but to me is nothing caz im use to it...

can you believe it???

everyone has a best friend or close friend...

somehow i dont feel like having even i have a best friend in other class.

she like  keep going with her other friends and leaving me behind 

actually i dont know why...

i dont even care about all those stuffs...

im just want to become a successfull cosmetologist..

of couse i want  to study in FRANCE...

just dont know  why..

i love france ...

i like french people...

i think im crazy but nevermind=P

so being in science class is cool but my add maths is boohoo~~

and 1 day some question that teacher write on the board even make me

start to drop tears...

but after all i told myself..

no need to be scare...

just take it easy...

if anything dont know just ask teacher..

so in cny i miss my grandma...

i love her so so so much...

she pass away last year...

what can i do??i cant take her back...

i miss her ,her face,her sound,even her actions

p/s>just one thing nothing last forever...