Dear Evan
我反省過這樣直白的跟她說,她會受多大的傷害。人人都希望聽見真話,她們都要我說實話,嘴巴說著「不要緊」、「我不會生氣」,卻每每知道真相時對我恨之入骨。多次掉入的陷阱,我終於知道,「誠實和坦白」是場考驗和賭博。
其實666是對的,我們都這麼直接,卻又那麼無奈。一連串的責罵和難過已經積聚了那麼久了——從她們相識好友暗戀明戀知已。剎那間,我真的身心交瘁。
Sonnets From The Portuguese ( No.09)
Can it be right to give what I can give?
To let thee sit beneath the fall of tears
As salt as mine, and hear the sighing years
Re-sighing on my lips renunciative
Through those infrequent smiles which fail to live
For all thy adjurations? O my fears,
That this can scarce be right! We are not peers
So to be lovers; and I own, and grieve,
That givers of such gifts as mine are, must
Be counted with the ungenerous. Out, alas!
I will not soil thy purple with my dust,
Nor breathe my poison on thy Venice-glass,
Nor give thee any love -- which were unjust.
Beloved, I only love thee! let it pass.
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