We have broke up for one week already, I these I just sleep one day and four hours!

I just eat for three days. One day when its the lesson time I drop suddenly and I have to go to sleep.

They sad I am really bad now. I have no I idea what I am doing now!

My friend say I am really stupid, one of them have punch me on face.

I this week I change a lot, I dont know my eyes got problem or I saw something that I dont want to see.

These few days when I got out in the night time I always saw some white thing with black head,

Everytime when I saw them I really worried. When I see hold day, I have a really bad dream.

I saw some die people they are talking to me. Really want to know whats going on!

I didnt go out in the night time now. I just stay in my room. 

Maybe we should go out on that time.

My foot is fuck up, doctor sad I cant run anymore, when I know that new I almost cry.

I both is for speed. Thats my jod speed is everything now. Cant worried about that.

I know you dont trust me, so just dont listen what I promiss you.

In these few moths I have to go back to my left wing in Rugby and basketbell. I can let our team lose.

These week our Rugby A-Team almost their match. I am captain I have to look after them I cant let them lose.

Thats mean I have to go back to left wing. I think after this season I cant run for anyother season.

lets week I be to a rugby match I have win it 34-07 really happy, because evil is back to team in left wing.

But after that match my rip feel fucking pain. when I talk, run it feel really bad.

I think its broke again. But now is not the time to think about it. Speed is everything.

Before I said " No girl no life" but I change it now " No speed no life"

Dont even care about my body, I just care about the match, I dont even care about you now.

I think next time if we still got chance to see each other, I think you have to come to my home or in the hospital.

Of cause I dont really want to go in hospital. But sometime you know you have to lose something, after that you can get back something.

Just like I lose you, but I have to get back my speed now!

Hope that you will be happy with someone who you go out with!

I will keep send you letter, if you want to you can open it, but if you dont want it you can just through it away`

Takecare, really want to say I love you in the end, but........I dont think its a good time!

So thats all ! Be happy^^

Last thing hope that when you know its too late no one can help you, if you got a chance you have to hope it dont let it go!

One day you will know what I am doing now, hope that you can know as soon as you can!