I hope everythings are never happened, but who make them happened, I know I have the responsibility, but who lead the thing out, who take the problems between us?  Don't always say that "It's not a big deal"  It must be a big deal, if u really care, if u really care about the relationship, u should not bring them our!!!! As u know what is your characteristic, u always say that u have no confidence to avoid doing "sth" wrong behind me, so u need to prevent the "factors" invaded into our realtionship!  I know your excuse, but is it strong enough to explain? NO!!! All of this can be absolutely prevented by your own behavior,  u can avoid them to invade our relationship, such as stopped the contact after the project finished, but do u do so?

Actually, of course, I can proof nth and nth can be proofed by me.  But I just observe your behaviour, it is hardly for me to believe 100% already.  Do always make me thinking in your position, think about me! Think it! Do u know what I need, do u? No, u don't.  I don't scare for u to check my coversation history in PC, coz I do nth harmful for our relationship. How about u? U're angry with me when I check yours, coz u're scare, u're scare for me to dig out sth sercret that u don't want to let me know or even u want to cheat me.  I guess u don't want to "loss" them coz u want to have a "backup", u want to have another better one to as the spare.  Can u deal with the love just like that ar?! Can u ar?  Think about it, I 'll give u time, maybe it is too fast for us to say "Renew".  Coz your attitude have never changed or u even want to cheat me from the very beginning.  I don't know and just known by your heart!!! 

P.S.: Do u know why I don't believe in God? Coz if the human being is created by Him.  I think that he should be the worst creater in the World.  If He is good enough, He should bear His pure mind to the the human body, but not the greedy, absurd, debauchery, cheating, etc.