Today, fifth of May, my B-day.   I still remember my B-day last yr,  it just unforgetable, my family, my friends & a girl who "loved" me celebrated my Bday.  I thinked I've changed my life, at least, I started to change..... But I'm wrong, I never chnage my life, never & never.  It's not real. It's not real.... Today, I just have a cake cost $3.5 with a terrible "B-day gift"--- my daddy has cancer.......

So barbed, So barbed...... I'm so tired.... I find I 'm too weak to change....