Today....I don't know how to describe my feeling.... I feel lonely, helpless & sad....I remind many pic in the past, all of them are the bad memory.... It's really a nightmare. My bull shit story....
Since F.5, I repent my fault,so I try to change myself, I knew that I wasted many time on doing many stupid things b4. But I began to study hard, even I till had a little bit lazy, but I had try my best to do the best. I seemed active in the class, I willed to help other classmates, I concentrated on the bk and the teacher teaching, worked hard on the past paper... Finally, my result was not my expect, but it's just ok for me to continue my study in F.6 (I think)... ok, fine! I still stay in that school to continue my F.6,7 study....How come.....I come to this fxxking campus....I regreted again, but everything become no alternative... haha... Amazing amazing, since childhood, I hate to come back to China but... finally I need to stay 6 yrs in this fxxking place.....Why the God need to treat me so god damn bad! I've done my job?! Why?! Let's me survive, ok?
Ok....2 yrs passed....I still here, my only good fd left this campus since Year 1, he also couldn't stand for the "teaching system" in this fxxking U....I have no fd in the class, noone knew my sad, my tear and my disappointed.....I just stayed in here to "study" my Year 2 like a walking dead....
2005.....my 3nd year in here....no change before....still like a walking dead with no hope...One day, I knew my gf....It's u, milk....U brought me a great motive power to encourage me to continue my study, I really feel love from u, u know....Except my dad, mum, sister & some close relatives....No one give me a real love but u....U make me warm, make me wake up again... I know why I need to study and live here. I see clearly my future, I see my way....U show me all of this... It's so touch, u know me that I'm not fright alone, coz u always stand by me and support... Let me no fear and step firmly in each step....Thx for u
But......Sometime I will still make u unhappy, cry and disappointed...maybe I don't know how to make u chear, maybe I'm a wood who sometime don't read your heart...but everthing doesn't mean I don't love u, don't care u, don't miss u and don't need u.....I need u, miss u, care u & love u indeed.... Baby~~~I will also feel cold, lonely, helpless and sad, I need u to stand beside me...I need u just like I need my dad, mum, my sister & some close relatives. Baby~~~Don't leave me alone...U let me know that what is love....
I LOVE U | 
My heart will be "pain" if she continue to cough and sick>.< Furthermore I wish I can get expected result in the exam of this semester and I also wish that I can get superpassed in the coming semester, at least I need to get little superpassed la! Work hard in the new year and create the brighter way by myself!
