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以前細個果陣開呢啲BLOG，說實話就只係想比一個人睇

當時就只係想比妳睇，蔡君怡

成日都想搵妳傾下計，聊下妳

眨下眼已經過左幾多年？四年？五年？

我諗而家呢個年份都唔會有人再開呢啲網誌來睇

如果妳係某年月日睇到呢篇野，哈哈，當係段緣份都唔差

2010116，而家都2017年，妳亦都有位睇落唔錯既男朋友

我？我都有過段不堪入目既關係，維持得大半年

更甚者試過飲醉起身見到有妳電話記錄

我都搲曬頭，我又驚會唔會打左比妳會麻煩到妳

又唔知自己講過乜，想搵妳問但我諗妳又未必會講，in case我真係有講到啲咩而唔記得

妳放心，就算妳某一日睇到呢段野，我絕對冇想要求同妳復合既意思

一來我唔希望再影響有男朋友，更至結左婚既人

二來，我再萌塞我都明白，我根本唔適合妳，大家會好辛苦而妳既辛苦絕對會比我多，多好多

果個人叫Mandy，大我好多，亦都結左婚有個五歲女

但佢，好似妳，舉止言談氣質好似妳，除左佢比妳粗魯同眼大過妳之外

我首先開始呢段不倫既關係，我亦都幫佢結束呢段難堪既關係

或者到頭來天秤座既人同我做朋友會好過做情侶

After all these years i'm still believing in horoscope,
at least i keep that part of me to remind myself the boy may still live in my heart somewhere somehow.

我都好明白果種感受，當妳已經係下一段感情果陣，上一段難過既感情根本都無暇去諗或者回憶

好多人都同過我講，係寶林又好邊到都好會久唔久撞見妳，但我唯一一次咁大把就只係果次分手冇耐

妳係九龍灣上車，係我隔離道門，妳仲打比我叫我望下左邊，我同妳中間就隔住好多人

就冇再見過妳，咁都係好事來既我諗

佢都係住寶林，慧安園。總之我諗以後我冇咩事我都唔會進出寶林架啦。

順便再講埋，
I smoke now, the one you hate the most and i'm doing it right now. 
Trying to hold more reasons for you to hate me. What i mean "you", i mean you both. Mandy and Kwanyi.
Forgive me i never wanted to call you Winnie, that's not your name in our memories. Admit it, those are our memories.
Just kidding maybe, smoking keeps clearing my mind. Though i dont want to wash them all, but i need to stop thinking about those things,
including you i guess.

2-9-2017  This should be the last one of my blog. Goodbye to me, to you, to all our memories. This place was my diary, and our grave now.