Everyday, i thinking about work, study...also

but, just only thinking. Can't to do.

In my Heart, i want to study, i want to work, i want to do anything.

but in fact, i can't.

first, my lover don't want to study, she felt that is very hard for herself....if i go to study, will be not eough time to care her. so I can't

second thing, is i don't have money. i don't want my dad mom worry, and i don't want use money of them.so i can't

third thing, is very important.this thing is .....my language, my second language----> english.........not..okay

how can explain......i just only say simple english...if smb used some diificult works......i don't completely to understand.

I don't know.....how can i do now

my piano asked me....i can oversea other country to study, for example, china....

in my mind i don't want go to there....i don't like china..

i like germany and britain and taiwan

if i can i will...

nobody can completely know me

..my lover can't understand too..................

.><.................................................................i'm very unhappy......

what can i do.??

my furture?....

how can i do now???