Finished! All finished!
Exams, TSA, all finished!
It's quite lucky for all those things finished.
Maybe that can clam myself down...

Three exam paper were received.
Result?
No good at all.
I just want to ask why.
Why every time,
when the others' result go bad,
my result go good.
But when the others' result go good,
my result go bad.
The feel of that is really bad.
When you saw the one who was worse than you in the past,
but almost all the result of the subjects of you was worse than that one.
When you were set down in your seat and all of your friends were talking behind you and talked about their super good result,
like, 139/140, 138/140, 136/140, etc.
but your result is worse than ALL OF THEM.
Who understand that feeling?
NO ONE.

You ask me why I cry?
You don't understand.
You said I don't understand that all of you understand me.
I do. I do understand that you might understand me.
But you didn't show it to me.
You know?
What I want to have and receive is actions, is listeners for me,
not the sentences that everyone say to me when I cry.
I listened to all of these sentences a thousand times already.
I understand. But I just can't do it.
You asked me not to cry.
I wanted to. But I can't.
You said you love to have an argue with me.
But I don't. I hate having an argue with you.
Don't always say you guys are understanding me
because you are not.
How do I know that you guys are not understanding me?
I can see it. I can hear it. I can feel it.
You guys have the thing I want the most.
That is very and 100% normal for all of you.
But for me, it's not.
Maybe is because I am not good enough.
Best friend, a true best friend, I best friend that him or her look you as his or her best friend too. NOT JUST FRIENDS.
This is what I want the most.
Don't tell me I already have or you don't have it.

I don't have much time left,
21 days with all of you.
include holiday already.
I don't want these days to be end ever.
But I can't stop the time.
Time will still go on,
it won't wait for me and us.
Miss all those things.
-4 of you: Wingki, Rachel, Goby, Yewie
-2 teachers: Miss Tang, Miss Tsui
-our school
-our class
If I can, I would like to stop the time and very leave all of you.
I don't want to lose my friends although all of you already have your own best friend.
Although when we go into pairs, the one left will sure be me expect in PE lesson...
Although when we go into secondary school, no one will being with me anymore in Co-ed...
Although I am not good enough...

Anyway, I am just not in a good mood.
Feeling bad, very very bad.
Even can't use a word to describe my feeling.
No one can imagine how bad my result is.
Chinese: 64/80 (The worst result I have ever have)
English: 135/140 (The worst result among all of my friends)
Maths: not yet given the paper to us
G.S.: 100/100 (The only paper I am feeling quite good...)

Over all, I can't finish my dream at all.
All of the hard-work in the past has been waste.
Just because did bad at last.
......
I don't know what to say...
Anyway, just 2 words:
SAD & DISAPPOINTED!
All wasted.