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Well,It's been long time i didn't write my diary,,whatever,,because it is not the worse....not a big problem because no one would care,,I kn0w it,,

The 0ne not care about me is him,...he told me 'bout his new girl,yup,i wanna to cry but i don't,I was just listened and not sound was made by me...yes,he want to tell me about it,but why?are he want me be hurt or cry,,,I just want to say[[are you want me to cry for you,,to CRY U A RIVER??!!]]i never want to make him cry,,i don't want hime to be hurt so I always cry by my own and no one knows...whatever ...thats not him...he is fine,,thats enough...

No Matter What,,I know he was been my only 1 before but not now,,he just dont leave my heart,but i dont care,,because he cant hurt me anymore,,whatever he said how long does he kiss with her new girl((like Stephy Tang))somethun'whatever...If he like to do , will makes him happy,thats enough....

Yup,,U won't see me cry in school because i can't cry...this is rubbish...is Useless...Cry ...I hate That word ...and i can't cry anymore,I always said it to myself,,but i usually cry at nighttime without a sound,,all tears are lose control and keep on falling by my eyes...

Exam is coming,,I know I won't get good result because of.....u know what i am talking 'bout...

without him i can't do anything...I try to change to "I can do anything with or without him''!!   Right?

Dear Fans,
I just wanted to reach out to all of you and explain some of the things that I have been faced with recently.
It's so funny how many stories are put out there about people. It's like we all want our side of the story out there as well, but at the end of the day only a few people care to hear what is really going on since the bad is always so much more interesting than the truth. I don't know why, but this is so weird to me. I used to be angry at the tabloids for printing horrible things about me, but now I try to just be numb to what I see. I saw Tyra Banks once get really upset and cry on her show because they made her look fat. We all want a certain image of ourselves out there, and at some point we all do really care what other people think or we wouldn't be here.
Recently, I was sent to a very humbling place called rehab. I truly hit rock bottom. Till this day I don't think that it was alcohol or depression. I was like a bad kid running around with ADD. I had a manager from a long time ago come in and try to direct me and my life after I got my divorce. I was so overwhelmed I think that I was in a little shock too. I didn't know who to go to. I realized how much energy and love I had put into my past relationship when it was gone because I genuinely did not know what to do with myself, and it made me so sad. I confess, I was so lost.
This letter is to not place blame on anyone, although I do see the world with a completely different set of eyes now. Being in that vulnerable state and taken to dinners and parties with friends and finding out later you paid for everything was a huge learning lesson for me. I think the whole problem was letting too many people into my life. You never know another persons intentions or what another person wants. I feel I was too open and looking for answers when I had it all to begin with. I have had to cut so many people out of my life. It is so sad, because if anyone is a family  person...it is me. When I was little I remember every  night watching movies with my family and feeling so at  peace. Dancing and singing all the time just like a  little girl should. Now recently I find with my children that I want them to have that feeling all of the time. I am having to face a lot of things right now since I have children of my own. A lot of insecurities from when I was little are coming up again. It is like we are never good enough.
I know everyone thinks that I am playing the victim, but I am not and I hate what is going on right now so much. Maybe this is the reason for this letter...to maybe allow people to look at me differently. It is like when you are a real woman and say what you feel and how you think things are supposed to be, that people just say you are a "bitch."
I feel like some of the people in my life made more of some issues than was necessary. I also feel like they knew I was beginning to use my brain for a change and cut some ties, so they wanted to be in more control of my life than me. I think it is actually normal for a young girl to go out after a huge divorce. I think it was a bigger issue because I had not gone out in such a long time. I am 25 and I do still have a lot to learn, and I am going to make mistakes everyday, and I am sure every mistake I make will probably be on CNN or Good Morning America. I am only human people and I love you for still loving me.
I am sitting here at home and it is 6:25 and both of my sons are asleep. I am truly blessed to have them in my life. Everyday is so surreal. Life in general is so surreal and crazy.
I just hope this letter made some of you think a little bit more of me and where I am coming from. I just want the same things in life that you want...and that is to be happy. It is just so weird because everyone has their own perception of me and how they think I really am. It is so weird how stories are told. There is your side, my side, and the truth. Somebody has to figure it out. I guess we will never really understand or figure out life completely. That's God's job. I can't wait to meet him...or her.
Love, Britney
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It is ok to disagree with people regarding certain issues. You’re not being true to yourself if you succumb to others opinions because you feel guilty.

he's back,,i'm so happy,,so happy,,because he's back~hoho,,Happy,but there's something I know 'bout myself,,there's like something missing in my heart,,whatever he's back,,I don't know why,,i'm just think,is he back so i'll felt happy or ...sad??!!no I sould be happy,,not sad,,but i just can't trust myself ,,I can felt myself is sad,,my heart is breaking, is crying...

he's back,,i know i sould be happy,,but not,,i know i'm not,,now...I can feeling it,,so bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i'm feel so awful now,,he's back,he's leaving,,like the same,,,is so messy,,in my head.........OH NO,,SHOP~~~~~~~~~~~~~I KNOW IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE NOT  LIKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HIMMMMMMMMMMMMM NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW????????????????????????

NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~~~~~~~~~I LIKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HIM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love him,,i think i am,,,,,,,,,,,,,i hope i am,,I don't know now,, I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE,i can't be without him i know,,I think 我已經習慣左一個掛