Selfish...what kind of selfish are we have??nice or not?sometimes,I think I'm so selfish,because I want him love me,but did I love him as him love me?I always asking myself...We both are selfish,,but his selfish better than so much,his selfish is...he love his lover but don't give lover love him,he said "love is pain",,ya,i'm agree,,before he gone,I just think he love to do that,,but after he gone,i know is not,,nobody like to be unloving,they always like to be belove,,that is real,love is pain,I have pain,but his pain is so much more that i have,sorry babe...I'm just,selfish,I want to be that you've did before ...now i want to be...

Before,I wanted to be his lover,but now,I'm just so glad that you've love me,now you love me or not,whatever,,by now,I'm just want to be love you,be 4ever...don't  want to be a lover anymore,no more!!I just learnt a lot on him , about this selfish,is hard to learn...

I know him,of course i know him , his meaning is:pain on myself is better than pain on you...one lover(himself) be pain is better than his lover(me)be pain... i want to cry now....

Ya,,I'm gonna to be selfish , A selfish like him...crying by now...................

ut...................u.t........................I failed.............in chinese....................I'm good ot chinese...................so ...my Dad was locked my computer......=="

Whatever,,I'm failed now......nothing can change this .......

SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!

I miss you babe...........(I just remember this thing^^)I know that something now.........I can;t make it without him!!I'm just ashame what I feeling now..........I don't know...very messy in my head...

I try my hardest to forget everything when I'm in school,even in my home,  'cuz i know i'll cry and nobody will hear me...I always cry by my own but i don't know why,Like I'm crazy!!

So many words for the broken heart,It's hard to see in a crimson love,So hard to breathe,Walk with me, and maybe,Nights of light so soon become,Wild and free I could feel the sun,Your every wish will be done,,They tell me....

Show me the meaning of being lonely,Is this the feeling I need to walk with.Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart...'cuz you're missing in my heart....

88,,see you next time

last time i said fed up....

Now we are breaking uo (What???Whatever...Breaking up or not ,,we still love each other^^),I think fed up never be in my dictionary,because...the stop time is 4ever(i said this before...in chinese..)I'm glad that we can broke up in so peaceful time....we both are not so flushed,we both know that...

he know that i'll said it , He just said some words at last ,is "Because of you , I can make thats all through",when he said thats,I want to cry , but i'm not regretful, I'm just so happy that I never choose wrong,because of him , I can be near  the perfect life , Like I never be wrong...so happy^^

FED UP

I  think it till i break up at now,I'm not think it now,I can't remember because we broke up,our love will never be fed up,I can be good in my life,I'll think our memory everytime,in everywhere,on anything...

So,now , i want to say "THANK U my babe..."

because it just hard to tell hime in th phone,so i say it in here...whatever you can see or not , I'm just feel more comfortable that i said it^^!!!!!!

88 you all!

Have you forgotten,Everything that I want it?,,,,

NO~Of course I know he'll never forget that....

at now,I'm just think "can i breaking up with him??"always thinking this

Is it so selfish?but you all not me,you'll never know,I think i never selfish because if we don't break up,we both are selfish,u know?    we don't know how we feel now,we don't know we both are love each other or not...

so I think if we breaking up,we both are good , if not, the times go around , go a long long time ,we are hate each other,that will be too bad!!I don't wanna breaking up that reason is hate each other , ""i don't wanna fall to pieces..."

I want that we break up the reason is Love...don't want any hate or...u know...fed up....

I'm afraid that we break up till we don't like each other........so , u know what will i do...

If he really know and love me,he'll know why i doing this all..............

So , the last one is , I want to say"I am not afraid to walk this world alone..."

All you guys,or my friend,Don't worry,I know I can make it ...whatever is long long time....

THANKS You all!!!!!

I gotta tell you all a truth,,this is not my first time I open this diary,...HAHA~

so now,I'm playing my guitar ,qooza , HW(PLAY?!^^) ,missing someone..................

hehe~the most importtant thing is , I'm Missing him now(u know who)

He has been to autralia for a 12 days , only12 days,I feel so awful,I never have this feeling ,,I said I can Make it before he gone , now, I just wonder that How i feel now,so horrlble....I never felt this Lonely,empty....

In everyday , he calls me in everywhere,whatever is somewhere , he likes to be with me,i like it too,i can know how we feeling when we both too far away(hk) of each other , but here come the truth , I don't belivie that so hard to trust him now(maybe he is too),is just autralia...he is like himself before,but i think we are both change , we just both change , we cannot see each other...can't see the truth of us , i just think i 'm so crazy now,i can't trust anyone,It is so messy in my mind , Help me BABE~~~~~~~

hA~UT is so hard , whatever , I just know I want To be with you 4ever ,

BUT I Still BELIVIE曾經擁有便是永恆(這個,,,,挺深奧的,明天跟大家explain啦~~)