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有時自己都好怪自己...失去左先珍惜有咩用...失去左先黎後悔有咩用...點解自己唔做好D...佢話"登"我第二時果個開心...搵到個好男人...但係我真係會搵第二個咩...E段感情我比任何人都重視...點解??我可以話比你地聽...係每一個人都要記住...搵男女朋友好易...成街都係...但係搵到個自己真係愛既就難過登天...講真如果真係唔識珍惜GE話...失去左就可能唔會番轉頭...

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依排番工都OK GA...早左番工...早左接人...係唔係想升職...之前我冇諗過...但係E+有...一個月就算多一千蚊我都會去做...因為一千蚊E+對我黎講好重要...一個月多一千蚊...就可以草多一千...E排都好少渣車...除左番工...放假有野做要渣之外...平時都好少出街...又慳好多油...哈...E+真係同你轉換左身份...以前你好慳...但係E+我變到好慳...哈哈...

早幾日去左飲之前係我公司做GE經理個BB既滿月酒...飲到好醉...紅酒加啤酒= =個人好似傻左咁...係咁幫人頂...好似唔醉咁...其實可以話係求醉...醉左係唔係真係唔會煩...我可以話你地知...係仲煩...仲諗得多野...果晚仲去左下場...但係一去到太黑喇...我好唔鐘意...好辛苦...自己行埋左一面坐...我咁大個仔...第一次係夜場訓教...竟然冇去玩...我真係變左...第二日D 伙記見到我...知我唔開心...話我忍得...係公司竟然一個都唔知我發生D 咁既事...講真...做野還做野AR MA..點可以帶自己私人野番工...之後就多左好多人黎安慰我...好開心...亦都好唔開心...比人關心係一種好開心GE野...但係過份關心只會令我再次去諗...咁又有咩用...不過都好多謝你地...好多謝你地咁樣去關心我...以前好少真心咁講多謝...E排就用左好多...21年入面GE都用晒出黎...自己都覺得好感動...

下個月就係我大假喇...會去邊到...真係唔敢諗...一諗就會諗起佢之前同我一齊過每一個假期...好多回憶...但係我諗真D...我好似同佢真係冇乜唔開心GE野...今次除外...我真係唔知道亦可以話未試過...佢真係太遷就我喇...佢識包容我...但係我又做左D咩出黎比佢睇...係E段時間我都學左點樣去包容...真係咩都係發生左事先識去做...做左又可以點...佢話做左都唔關佢事...但係我做咁多野都係想比你一個人睇...我唔係做比第二個睇...可能我太傻LA...一直都想佢番黎我身邊...但係我迫左佢番黎...死纏住佢...咁得到番我GE快樂...佢又會快樂咩...係咪先...E+既我好想簡簡單單咁同佢過...好想放假去下玩...周假去下食飯行街...一個月出糧就草錢...草夠錢就結婚...可以話係太大諗頭...諗得太多喇大肥仔...E+先識計條數...原來一個月洗GE錢我真係好多...唔應該洗既都洗埋...真係誇張...其實一個月係可以草到5 6千蚊...嘩...條數都好好計...6千...1年都7萬2 LA....2年都14萬4 LA...唔洗3年就夠錢結婚LA...就算唔結婚...3年D錢都夠比首期買樓LA...點解之前唔去咁做...唉...正死蠢...成日話人低能...其實我先係最低能呀...

最後我淨係想同佢講...小心身體...玩時玩...唔好搞到自己有危險就OK 喇...因為有好多野好多人...你都未見過...我唔係話自己見得多...但係一定比你多少少...好人壞人點分...冇人會知...因為我講過...就算點識計...人心係計唔到...當一個人真係想去做一樣野...真係會做出黎...我只怕你有危險...所以之前先管你...當你同我講你大個...但係我都仲係好擔心...SORRY...我煩到你...但係我真係想你好先會咁做...希望你明白我...體諒我...

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