今日咩日子?
今日....我係好想快d到ga1日..因為可以見到佢仲係可以見到3個鐘.....朝早ge我係好開心好開心....我仲諗住等佢電話..想接番去....起碼可以見多幾個字但係始終佢都係冇打俾我...但係我都係咁開心^^咪跑番去傳恩堂...剛好10點鐘...跟住咪試但坐個位..聽佢地講野...我一坐低..聽佢地話我(過兒)...嘩..呆哂囉...但係又好開心wor...咁yanyan咪係小龍女....好開心好開心~~之後再得知yanyan佢係祈禱房...見佢出黎唔開心...我都唔開心...唉..佢過左陣都冇野...咪繼續玩遊戲囉~~嘻...好開心..好開心..因為我今日可以係佢面前玩得幾放ga一日....跟住...居然又同上年一樣..又要學英文...我呢個英文白痴...上緊果陣講咩都唔知..咩都唔識聽...忽然見yanyan又出埋去玩...好大膽牙...我就...唉...但係yanyan出左去..都係怕羞...佢講完啦...無喇喇入左去廁所...子玲陪埋入去~我睇見...擔心牙...子玲出番黎..我見到洪牧師係隔離...咪叫左洪牧師入去廁所睇下yanyan點囉...跟住等佢出黎..聽住英文歌等牙等...但係到完左佢都未出黎...我咪扮去廁所睇下佢點囉...去到見到佢ga感覺..似避我咁...唔開心...唉...跟住咪番番入去做野囉...我冇帶功課去做...咪拎camp d野去做...用電腦抄聖經...夠鐘食飯啦...出到去同祥仔一齊坐...哈哈...不停搶野食...但係見時間就黎冇...咪食得快快..咁就再去做野...我做哂ga時候...諗住出去見下佢...但係...已經走左luu...心情當然dwon緊啦...之後繼續做野..做下做下...安仔,kin好似有野同我講...我咪係咁問係咁問囉...佢講...講到最後...冇講落去..但係我估到係咩事啦.(佢鐘意你).....我...當時心情...個心俾刀砍緊?俾針(吉)緊?我諗都唔係...我覺得係停左囉...又唔係痛wor...我聽完之後就扮冇野啦...咪走去第2度lamlam隔離...但係...我忍牙忍...都係忍唔到...係lamlam面前喊...喊...喊...喊到謝sir見到...佢問我咩事...我答(冇牙...唔開心...)之後安仔.kin佢地又見到我喊...sor牙...要你地講但係我又喊...跟住?跟住一齊去買野食...個腦仲係度諗野?冇啦...個腦空白哂...只係聽住歌一路行一路行...有時又聽到d歌詞攪到我眼濕...都係忍左唔喊...買完野...唔想番去傳恩啦...唔想佢地見到我又喊...咪走先...番屋企...番屋企之前自己一個又係咩都冇腦...只係一路行牙行...出面ga世界...一粒聲都聽唔到咁...只係聽到歌...好靜牙果陣時...冇內番到屋企...細佬仲係度...冇喊到...佢一出左去...咪坐係電腦面前...聽下歌...睇番同yan d對話...又喊番...個腦就不停諗野...睇睇下...寶洲msn我...嚇到我...佢一路到我傾牙傾...傾到祥仔.安仔.kin都番黎啦...個個人都係度問我野...(佢宜家仲係我老婆ok?唔好再話佢啦...)我知我宜家仲咁講我係好白痴...原諒我可以嗎~子玲陪我傾左好多野...我知點做嫁啦...我都知...佢最愛不是我...我做什麼她都不覺得是什麼...我明白了...我這個"代替品"無論怎做...唉 5個月一直都是代替品?難道你們都說初戀就是吸收經驗是真的嗎?我還是不相信...但是...明天會怎樣子...我已經看得很灰...我這個"代替品"還會記得我跟你的承諾...
個心都係一直咁痛緊...我諗我愛一次就夠啦...傷一次就夠啦...真愛?我太天真啦...點會係我度發生...
好想好似楊過咁...只係要個真係愛佢ga小龍女...
安仔你之前叫我好好照顧yanyan...我反而傷害左佢啦...對唔住...我咁情緒化...思想天真ga男仔...係冇人要嫁...連妳都係唔要我...
我當代替品的時間到終點了...在明天會來個結束?
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