做乜個個都咁鍾意提起你,,講親ｇｅ都係一d令我唔開心ge野.....你返去,,好開心...返去陪人過年好好...!！

今朝８點30就比呀爸ge敲門嘈醒..唔入黎,,只敲門...無奈,,,,,出發去鄉下lu....揸車去左皇崗..之後再去深圳∼等埋呀爸拎返架車返黎..再食左d野,,就出發lu...三個小時的車程....上到車第一時間訓覺啦,,,

今日真係辛苦啦...坐左咁多個鐘頭車,,夜晚都去左按摩......呀爸攰死了....返屋企lu,,今日算有唔開心有開心吧.....３點先返屋企,,即刻訓覺...聽日仲要早起身去海洋公園....!!三人行..必有我師<---無聊,,,

你一個人淨係理人地...總唔會理會身邊對你更好的人...可能你覺得我對你唔夠好,,唔要我了...一心一意都不是好事,,？??你究竟每次講ge野...邊d係真邊d係假......我有辛苦過,,你有冇...每次都係我唔開心..你有試過嘛,,??試過都唔係為我的...算了,,比不上就係比不上...我比人差一倍的..........情濃時對我特別好,,到淡了..便會掉低我遠走好,,,,,!！！!點樣去學有情..??我唔識愛情..? ？我太傻..對你.......

今朝１０點就起身,,發現每日發ge夢..都係好壞,,,偏向壞方面...整完個蛋糕仔..就換衫,,要出去飲茶..今日都ｏｋ忙..要去車公廟..加上萬x寺.......１２點去到酒樓...超多人擁埋黎利是....呀媽同呀爸都好無奈咁比左d利是佢地....三唔識７....買左本ｙｅs黎睇..同呀軒係度研究....占卜,,好玩..幾準的...我ｄ性格..孤僻,極情緒化...中哂,,,

１點30就走啦....去車公廟先,,,全場煙...眼都痛埋,,,,康琪姐姐都黎左,都好似好耐冇見佢...裝香..買風車,,有兩年冇做過ge野..真係有點陌生,,,買埋擺係車度ge野...當然我一定會有你心啦...係得我提你呢...呀媽真誇張,,買左個六個金元寶ge野放係屋企....見到都閃呀.....走lu...去萬x寺,,係車度睇"三分鐘先生”..係部psp度睇....

去到萬x寺又行上山啦,,見到好多馬騮呀......變左馬騮山...ｄ馬騮又惡喎,,不過我都唔執輸..影左幾幅相,,,上到去出哂汗...食素先,,之後去裝香...再求籤...解籤,,上上籤,今年ok順利...學業都好..平平安安,,如非人為,,都不會有一點損傷ge..!!食埋豆腐花..就走人啦,,又見到馬騮....得意...大家一齊返左林村先...係果度坐下...

７點30去食飯....去海港..十分多人,,,超搞gaｐ..飯同麵黎先過d餸..即叫我地食飽先,,唔洗再食餸咁囉,,,浩然係度玩我部電話,,３D賽車.....９點30食完走人...返屋企lu,,聽日一早又要起身去大陸,返鄉下...即日來回,,,!!夜晚去埋按摩tim...!！呵ｘ２∼又係一大班人去按摩....記得上次我發脾氣,,令大家過得十分尷尬...!！

記得當初大家...曾歡笑過..宜今日大家再不能聚埋一齊...再笑過,,,,,,你說ge每一句算承諾..？?我應否去相信..?？你說過就是..不要再令我失望...你的話語叫我最快樂..你也叫我最心痛,,,,,事實就事實..我講ge係..你會說不是..??

琴晚去左呀公度食飯,,,玩三公...輸得好慘..利是錢,沒有了....唉,,,,

今朝１０點幾起身lu....呀爸又唔肯服侍隻狗喎,,嘈我起身整野喎,,無奈....屋企好多朱古力食...ｄ人送禮咁鍾意送朱古力架...!！

宜家又係幾多日啦...?？係唔係個個都要蝦我....仲乜我諗親ge野都係要壞方面....好辛苦呀,,,,你走的一天..我冇了笑臉..怕別人看見,,,好唔鍾意....好想....點解係都要咁對我,,,到宜家都唔夠１個禮拜,,我都已經係咁啦....咁想我點呀,,,

１1點幾出左去食lunｃｈ...去大埔墟食,又見到許冠傑喎,,,佢真係老左好多...不過真係好高,,,超鍾意豹紋ge佢..成身都係,,,我同呀哥食完野就去睇電話啦....我又要買電話,,佢地比我煩到終於係買比我架.....不過要比呀哥哦幾廿句咁囉....買左部６２88..二千6...算ｏｋ..買完就返屋企lu...即刻係度玩部電話,,,呵ｘ２∼

4點同呀ling出左去太和,,,咁多間鋪都唔開...佩姿都冇開...最後都係要去大中釘耳,,釘埋左邊...佢地成日話我釘一邊唔釘第二邊.所以咪去釘埋佢囉,,,,釘完周圍行....買左隻生日熊仔...９29..去左大眾睇蛋糕書,,,tｈｘ呀ling等我...哈ｘ２∼跟住去左吉之島買野...揀左好多...最後見到有ｄ整好哂ge...所以就將果ｄ野全部放低哂...仲係要掉入去最入ge地方...怕人見到...嘻ｘ２∼買完就返屋企lu........

我好唔鍾意..唔要咁樣,,,個個都唔鍾意我,,,你又走埋,,,仲要我點過......仲有咁多日要我捱下去,,你又不會給一點說話討好我...可能你在那邊已忘記得一乾二淨,,,,,我冇任何地位....所以都不須重視我吧,,,!！我注定要受到多次痛苦....見住你送ge禮物..都只會更痛,,我有事點解你唔返黎...仲要我繼續痛,,,,,,,,,

ＣHUI....對唔住..曾鍾意過我,,不過我又係咁樣對你..知道好錯,,,只怪我自己真係唔習慣...對唔住..我情願對你說一百聲sｏｒｒｙ..只要你能接受......我知道自己當初求你再跟我一起係好錯.....最後又係我要求你,,,好衰ge我,,不怪你再不理會我...知道是自己不值得要你去原諒,,,,,ｓｏｒｒｙｓｏｒｒｙｓｏｒｒｙｓｏｒｒｙsorrysorrysorry....

至今究竟我等了幾多天,,,自己都不太清楚了....一日ge時間,,彷似有三日一樣......我咩都唔明,,唔明呀唔明呀,,點解要我咁痛苦..我係邊個...都係人一個....!!你明白嘛,,？??

琴晚同呀媽呀爸上左大陸按摩,,發現係上去派錢ge....ｄ人係衝埋黎咁拎利是架....我自己係度按腳,,呀爸佢地上房按身...都幾嘆架,,有電視..有野食..有野飲...哈ｘ２∼夜晚12點返林村,,返左過去姑果邊∼因為要睇下隻money有冇反轉間屋....果然係反轉左架,,咬野....我地執...１點先返屋企,,,換衫就訓啦...好攰,,,

我知道自己應該放低...但係都係唔捨得,,係唔係真係逼我做d我唔想做ge野先最好,,？??道理上我係要離開,,但心理上..我一d都唔想走,,,更想擁有一生.......原諒我的無知,,,我都係愛得太深..令自己咩都盲目哂啦.........

今朝１１點幾起身,,隻coffee又係訓係我隔離,,,痴住左我,,,跟住即刻走入廁所沖涼,,真係好熱呀嘛....頂唔順,,,屋企唔洗有長袖衫架啦..只會有背心,,呵ｘ２∼自己的樣子比平常人更殘,,,不打理好自己ge身體,,都係我...唔理人感受..都係我,,今晚要去婆婆度食飯..帶哂d狗過去.....

我一直在守候,,卻得到什麼,,一點關心都沒有吧...人家怎講我不管也罷...仲要我變成點你先安落,,我死左你最開心呀..?？我早知結局..最後都是我錯,,都是要我苦受....我猜想一切,,係唔係真係會發生,,??死亡,,都並不可怕..!!係你呢個人令我要咁樣諗..早知你是一個咁ge人..我點解仲要甘心去愛,,,,?？我究竟變成一個咩人....討厭了我,,?？乞人憎..？?煩..??一一都變了...

                             琴晚食完團年飯..就去左行花市...都唔係咁多野賣je..買左個魔豆返屋企種,,嘻ｘ２∼電話中的你,,都不信是真實..太過於虛假..!！好怕你被人所騙去...而我就要苦苦等候..直至你回來當天,,,,不要再令我傷...不想再為你有任何擔心,,,

今日1１點起身,,琴晚成晚攬住隻coffee訓...細細隻零捨好玩....哈ｘ２∼呀媽又拜神啦..我就換好衫,,同呀爸過去guｇｕ屋企,,裝香..隻money叫極都唔出黎,,仲以為佢唔見左tim...走lu..去左許願樹度行左一陣,,,好大支珍寶珠...!!

返屋企開餐lu...食素....唔想食,,唔係唔好食...只係覺得唔知再有咩食落口係好食.....都冇左果種感覺,,咁又點可以有胃口食野呢..？??

為何你離開後對我的態度可以１８０度改變.....說真說假我都不清楚了,,對你不什了解...究竟你係邊個,,??屋企人..我唔渴望擁有,,但我只想擁有你....你的人,,在何地何時才回來此處,,,,還是你不想再回來..到此我都不知自己為什麼要這樣去愛...

我返學,,佢地都會返la..咁點解你仲要留低...為左d咩,,,原來我是一個這樣不懂得心的人...更不明白你愛著誰的感覺,,,!!

對唔住人....對唔住人..如我沒有一個苦衷...我都不想要你為我傷,,我hｕｒt了你,,,係我ge大錯.....對唔住,,我只係有好多苦衷唔講出黎...