weakness,, i hate this part of me,,

whenever i love someone, i juz gave myself as a whole to them,,

n when they dun want me anymore,, i'm broken,, n need to be put back into piece,,

i never know how to put myself into pieces becuz there's always someone else doing it,,

i rely on others,, i live for others,, i couldn't find a reason to live,, i juz know i have to live,,,

for tht,, now,, i'm trying to change,, not to put my love to anyone,,

juz live my own life,, not relying on others to live,,

it will be hard,, but i will try hard !!!

2day i went out wif a few fds,, including him...

during the time we r watching movie,, he said i'm very  noisy....

i'm soo sad,,

he n my fd share drinks,, the played n laughed,,

i knew there is no posibility between the 2 of them,,

but i cried,, no juz becuz the movie is sad,,

n also becuz of wht i saw n heard...

when there was only 3 of us in the sing k room,,

he starts to talk to me...

he said he lost his love,, i said me 2,,

well,, we both knew it..

cuz we lost each other..

he said tht person is very heartless,, only sent sms to him to say break up...

i said,, someone sent sms to tht person to say break up to her be4..

n also on her b-day...

he hugged me on my waist when he tried to stop me from standing up. ...

he drank a drink tht i drank n i drink it again...

he tickles me on my stomach which he always did be4...

he step on my shoe when he walked behind me,,

he made my hair messy a few times n made me angry to mess wif his hair...

can anyone tells me,, wht does he want from me...?

開這個日誌主要是因為不想讓我的朋友看到...

雖然是我甩了我前男友,,

可是我會這麼做只是因為我知道他不愛我了...

或許是有那麼一巴仙的愛吧...

我相信如果他是完全不愛我了,,

他便會甩了我並不會再愛我了....

至少,, 還有那麼一點的期望...

雖然我愛他,,

但對別人,,我還是說我沒有喜歡的人,,

我知道如果我說我愛他的話,,

他會覺得我很煩,,會討厭我...

所以我會在他身後默默支持他....

我的朋友和我

不知道算不算是朋友...

明明知道對方討厭自己

但依然裝作是好朋友...

以為一直這樣就好了,,

但她竟然說我喜歡一些我並不喜愛的人,,

'重點係佢同個女仔講我鐘意佢男友呀'

她讓我跟那女生活在誤會之中...

而且,,

她(我'朋友')跟那女生說,,

'妳一定能夠打敗她的!!我支持妳!!'

這麼虛假的我和她...