真係好痛,,,好痛,,,,,,

爆甲= =...仲要0係指甲中間個位,,,剪又剪唔到,,,好痛...點算= =?

哎0也0也....冇陰功......

唉...有d野變左就係變左.....

唔係話做番d咩...就可以同以前一樣.....

真係好奇怪.....無論幾深厚既感情...

一下子,,要變就變.....不過...其實自己都係咁....= =

有時,,,撫心自問...好多野都唔係把口講到咁唔稀罕,,,咁冇所謂,,,咁易放得低...

但係又唔明,,,點解係要死撐落去....

或者...自己其實,,太過渴望,,所以怕失望.....

唔知道0係我認識既人入面,,,有幾多個會同我一樣呢....?

個個人,,都要表面做到好開心,,好幸福,,,好風光....

屁屁成日話我,,我唔可以再係咁,,要面對現實....

我明白...自己確係令人又嬲又失望.......我真係好愛逃避....

"我重係細路女唻之嘛"  呢句說話,,我由15歲講到依家喇...20歲都唻緊...

但係...冇可能唔長大....所以...逃避囉....

嗯....成年人既世界真係好可怕.....(20都咁講,,怪怪既= =")

連面對認識左多年既朋友.....都要戴住假面具......

見到好耐冇見既朋友.....同佢講..."哇..好耐冇見,,,好掛住你呀"  講真平時有幾何諗起佢丫...

對住d個心其實好掛住,,但係你又唔會點搵既.....就係咁吹水....講下自己又有d咩,,,去過邊,,,有幾開心....

或者佢問起你近況...就會話...咪又係咁...又係咁上下囉.....

但係可能...心入面有好多好多野想同佢講....另一方面..你又怕佢變左...怕佢唔知會點諗你....

唉....猜猜度度既世界..真係好麻煩...不過可能自己係咁,,,先會咁諗人啦.....(猜．度．中= =）

真心話,,好難講出口,,,由其....比人呃過之後...言之鑿鑿....相信..然後失望.....

係我自己唔信人,,,先認為人 人都信唔過.....我知道.....

所以,,我咁既態度...只適合生存係自己既世界,,,,咁樣唔好,,,會令自己愈唻愈自私...

不過,,,改不了....何況有時,,,就算講真心話,,,都冇人信啦....

開日記就係咁用囉,,,要擺低d野,,,搵個地方,,,面對真實既自己...

當好多野,,唔知點同人講,,,永遠都講唔到出口......

講左,,最多換唻一記白眼,,,一句冷言冷語.....

因為,,我講得大話太多。