I hate the feeling that I am just having right now.
I just feel LOST!! I simply don't know what I need to do now.
As my Examination was over, I should start to do something... but I really don't know what I should do ><

I've rest for a couple of days, woke up very late, and for some of the days I just woke up at noon @,@ and I have watched some video on net. For the first few days, I have read several books and for now, I am not interested in reading any Chinese love fiction books @@" The worst thing is that, I've finished reading the last book that bought from Taiwan >< Poor... I have no book to read now!!

I know I have to do something, I could find a summer job or I should start to find something to learn. But the fact is that, I do not have any passion to anything. I was totally lost at this point and feel frustrated.
At this moment, one very important thing that I should do is to fill my choice for the University. But I just start thinking what I really want to do and what I could be. It's just the most difficult task for me all the time to figure out who I am.
 

Honestly, I know which subject I do really want to study, but the point is that, in here, marks stands for passion!! High marks stand for a great passion for the subject and high marks mean a person is crazy about the subject; so while for a low mark, it stands for a lack of passion!! Aha~ So what could I be??

I don't know why I just starting to lose my confidence, even worse, I didn't have much confidence in the past =.="
So these days I keep on questioning myself, what I really want to be and what I need to do right now. But, no answer, of course. So how I am going to fill my list?? That is unknown.

I know I need to talk to someone, someone who know who I am and my abilities, potentials and capabilities as well as my personality, of course know about the subjects!! But in fact, there isn't that perfect guy around me!
My parents, they may know my personality, but the may not understand deeply my abilities. My friends, some of them may know my abilities, but very few know my real personality! Teachers, I don't keep a close relationship with them, because I don't want to do it all the time!!
At last, the one who know the best of me is MYSELF!! But... I don't know what I really want to do!!

So, at this point, I am stuck in here right now.

For many aspects, I love the place where I am. I love the people I have around me, although some of the time there are bad experience. I love the sounds and voices around me and I love most of the every places around me. But I hate this style of life. People here will be pushed to go on and on and on, but this made me feel lost! I do not have the time to figure out who I am. Most of the time I just spent on doing the things that everyone need to do. It seems that, I couldn't find the time to develop my own unique personality! And I didn't have the time to develop my interest too.

So I hate the style of life I am having now!
I want to try many things and I do really want a choice that comes out to be the same in my mind but none of it will be. So I just want to ask "why people call them choice?"