好似發完惡夢咁...
今日...六點鐘鬧鐘響...
點解六點既...我明明九點先考...
我唔記得左...你唔洗番...我唔洗叫你起身啦...
點解以前我又唔肯早d起身...偏偏而家咁早...
去到坑口...做咩無啦啦行a出口入呢...點解冇啦啦行去美心買包呢...
點解買飛無啦啦禁左兩張飛呢...買一張飛...做咩入六蚊呢...傻左...
番到學校...d人唔認得我...因為我冇左靈魂...隻眼冇望過人
把口都冇講過野...平時行路鬼死咁快...而家行一行去廁所...好似行山咁...
坐低睇下本書...咁耐以黎...我一頁都未睇過...到臨考前半粒鐘先考...
老婆...對不起...我考不好了今次...
睇下個時間表...咦...1e要考普通話...點解牙瑩話唔洗番既...
sd sms俾佢...原來佢唔記得左a"a...
一路考...份卷考2個半鐘...考到大約十點三...我望住個鐘...
心諗..牙瑩應該番到啦...但都係唔諗住..做卷...
到十點半...佢應該差唔多考完啦...都係唔諗~再做..
到十一點...識做既題目都做哂啦..擺筆支筆...係咁諗果d題目...
計計下...發覺...就算我做左果d題目岩哂....都係得6x分...
唉...到十一點左右...我已經放棄...我諗起你...
捱埋果半個鐘...一放我衝出黎...唔知點解我好想你係canteen等我...
好似果日咁..你等到我五點...你係canteen度等我...
但唔見左你啦...你去左藍田...我有種感覺...
如果我今日再唔哄番你...我以後都冇機會...
所以我過左黎搵你...一落的士...
我見到你個樣...就知道你好好好唔開心...
睇見你揸住支煙...我突然有種感覺...就係...
你變左...呢個唔係你黎...你唔係牙瑩...牙瑩唔會咁...
見到牙yan好努力咁哄你開心...睇見你扮出黎既笑容...
我個心...那住那住咁...好痛...但我個樣冇變到...
我一d都笑唔出~一d感覺都冇~麻木左...
上左牙yan屋企...你係咁打呢樣打果樣...就好似打緊我個心咁...
打一下...我個心裂左...再打...碎左...唔好傷害自己啦...佢唔會知道架...
俾佢知道有個人為左佢咁唔開心...佢只會高興...只會更自大...唔會內疚...
因為我試過...我曾經係呢種人...
走了...番屋企...我送你番去...但睇見你好想放棄自己果個樣...搞到我都唔開心..
等緊小巴果陣...我想行出去俾車車死算...
你想出去淋雨...我就捉住你唔放手...唔俾你淋...
你要淋雨~我就偏要姐你...
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係小巴度...你俾哂d sms我睇...最初...好嬲..好嬲..好嬲..
愈睇...個心好痛...睇完之後...個心仲痛~痛到完全無法形容...
自己女朋友..唔係~係老婆...自己老婆...因為呢d sms~而唔開心到咁
因為呢d sms...傷痛到好似發左癲咁...因為佢...要傷害自己...
我係佢老公黎架...我一d野都做唔到...呢d說話...我曾經同好多好多人講過...
曾經都有不少人為我咁樣...但係而家傷痛既輪番自己...
最痛既係...我明明唔比佢差...我愛你比佢多呀...我對你比佢好呀...
點解你唔愛我呀...點解佢hurt你...點解佢玩你..你都要鐘意佢...
我唔明呀唔明呀唔明呀唔明呀!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
雖然我已經哄番你...但我知道...我眼前呢個人...已經唔係一個月前既老婆...
佢個心唔係為我而痛~淚唔係為我而流...痛唔係因我而傷...
點解我仲要成個傻仔咁係佢身邊...做小醜...
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晚上...好難好難~好辛苦先哄得番你...
俾阿boo一個電話搞到謝哂...屌...
我真係好慶...好想發脾氣...
唔係你鐘意阿boo~我一定同佢嘈...
唔係你會因為佢而唔開心...我一定會同佢嘈...
算啦...你係鐘意佢...我阻止唔到...
到你真係傷到頂唔順...你就番黎搵我啦...
當我水泡都好..我唔介意... |
