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初戀難忘初次心痛  |
分類: 心情記事簿.. |
認識左4個幾月，期間感覺一直受到暗示，但我覺得係開玩笑，無認真對待同回應，但離開左諗返轉頭，越諗越覺得有野，終於跌入自制既情網，獨自戀愛左2個星期。
到前晚收到風男主角轉呔，難以置信，無法入睡。
尋日喊左幾次，周圍唱俾朋友知，仲喺朋友面前失控，發泄完好好多，試埋隊酒，今日感覺良好。
究竟係我太純情，定係人地曾經真係有意思，依家不得而知。
喺我忘記之前，記得佢話過：
你喺facebook更新既情況我想知道-所以我開始加上英文內容；
你想去邊我都奉陪-所以我地喺佢好攰既時候仍然同遊博物館；
記住我講既野-所以我盡量記住；
你好靚架啦-喺我照鏡檢查儀容時，雖然我經常唔同意；
如果你要嫁俾土耳其人-之前無諗過，後來無諗過其他結果；
我無機會啦-講起佢差2cm先到我既理想對象既高度；
我唔係你同學-所以我開始當佢係朋友。
我地約好8月去佢國家時1會留宿佢屋企，同佢阿妹做朋友，開車載我周圍去玩。
我唔明中間發生左咩事所以情況有變，但我明白佢所揀既女仔係非常好既人，年輕貌美，天真又熱情，家庭背景良好。
點都好，其實都係我走左之後諗太多，所以先會自作多情左2個星期，人地話要用雙倍時候嚟復原，我諗應該唔洗咁耐。
尋晚準備隊酒時佢聯絡我，為之前發脾氣既事道歉，但其實明明係我錯，因為係我激嬲佢，但佢堅持道歉，最後我提議互相原諒對方，繼續做好朋友，佢同意了，而土耳其之旅照原定計劃。
喺學校時我真係無諗過愛情方面既關係，但走左時間多左又孤身一人先不禁胡思亂想，都是寂寞作怪。
雖然題目係初戀，但好抱歉，初戀仍未到。
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2016 年 3 月 24 日 星期四  |
| More than 80 days in the UK |
分類: 西遊記 |
It's almost 3 months since I left Macau, there isn't even one time than I miss her.
After transferred to Wimbledon and returned to Oxford, it just like I've never left.
At the first week it was hard to me, I didn't know how to continue the friendship with classmates.
I missed the days with Zuzana very much, but that didn't mean than I like Zuzana very much, not as much the classmate I like here.
I have plenty time, sometimes I read manga and escape from this world again, I think it's a very bad hobbit.
Or I think of many thing that will never happened, daydreaming.
For sure that my English's processing, and still my listening's weak.
Easter holiday's coming, I only join two activities from school, there are two days I need to think of something to do.
I would like to visit Kew Garden, but I'm afraid that there will be a lot of people, but does it really matter?
I only have one more month to think of where to go after the course.
The easiest decision's go to Czech directly, and stay with Zuzana until June then go to Spain together.
I still have the bad habit of postponing, and I'm still single..........
Travel alone isn't easy, no one to share funny things I see, no one to talk with, no one to count on.
Maybe only by this way I can grow up, I'm still like a child, irresponsible for my life.
The other easy decision is go to Norway to stay with Mariah's parents, I should meet some people I don't know first, and Zuzana will be always waiting for me.
Yesterday Isak said he loves us, I believed. Today he told the new student they love her, I can't help to think about that his love is cheap.
I felt sorry but I meant what I said.
I'm possessive, I have too many expectation on my friends, I want them to love me only, no other one, I know I need to change.
Today I watched the videos of 5 years ago, I found that I forget the happy memories very easily.
What can I do to make all of my friends stay in my heart, stay in my mind, remember all their names, remember all the happy moments we stay together?
What can I do to make them remember me forever?
Nothing we can do, but this is life, we meet some people, we have good times together, then we say goodbye and we cry, finally we forget each other.
I am still wasting my time, I am still young, am I?
When the Portuguese music plays, I still remember those steps, but I don't have a partner to dance with.
I think God loves me so much, he doesn't want me to have any experience of heart breaking.
2nd of May is the date I leave, where should I go?
This world is big, but where is my home? where is my lover? |
2016 年 2 月 27 日 星期六  |
| Going to London |
分類: 西遊記 |
Today is the we said goodbye to Sifaa, Yutai and his friends and Zaba(the most handsome boy in school that I told him several times today), and I am going to London next week.
Humood lost 2 friends at the same time, he must be very sad, but this is the life. We keep meeting people and losting them.
I don't think I am a good person, because I always feel jealous. When I relly really like someone, I want he or she only belong to me, I want to stay with him or her as long as I can, I don't want them to have other friends.
That is my problem, I see a friend too important, I try to see him or her less important, then I won't be so sad at the end of the course.
It is good to have a friend who want to stay with you as long as you want, but not only becasue he or she like you, but also you are the only one who will stay with him or her for that period. |
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