today going to work i almost used up half of a box of tissues.. man i'm really sick and i can't believe this and everything else is kinda crazy i wasn't sneezing but i have a horrible running nose that would never shut off and everything else so i cough whenever i laughed too hard and sunny sir is too funny he makes me chuckle seriously he is the best math tutor i know he is just like my brother, i was coughing much, but some students gave me cards and gift kinda makes me so sweet nearly make me fainted, and it makes me so happy when i meant something in the kids heart and it makes me super happy that they taunted me because i'm coughing and they seduces telling me how good is the candies or chocolate... haha i really love kids, but what can i say, they're angel from above heaven.

after work, i played basketball with the five guys, sunny sir, judi, karl, sky, and bill gates? haha all are students except for sunny sir.. we def have so much fun at basketball while buring calories and makes me sick even more after laughing so hard.... haha i love those boys they're so funny whenever i see karl and bill gate, these two kids are a pair they can make jokes even if is just on a little things...they're silly boys.. and they can somehow finished one and other's sentences.. which makes it funnier..

so after basketball i saw the law's family, it was fun meeting kenneth's family... and we had dinner and we went over toward theird house for exchanging christmas present in order for us to pick what we want we must play rock paper scissor shot (it was my mom's idea) def can tell why we're doing it? =P haha i love her so mrs.law got me a bag for christmas thanks.. it is beautiful although i have so many and now adding more to it... hehe i love how i can have many bags to match my clothes..hehe

then kenneth and i talked quite a bit while i was in his room playing computer games and reserve if i do have turtles as pets, what should i do?  well then tonight i really feel as i got to know him better and seriously, i felt i reached his inner world for the moment, but however he is just a friend, he's not the kind i will fa ill for or even liking because he is just a brother, an older brother...it is kinda riduciclous of something he told me but i don't is possibly to be true.. my mind is lost and confuss but i try my best to calm it.. i don't understand but i believe i will find a way...

today i'm really sick, my voice was cracking and not my normal voice and def can't speak for shits and holy crap my voice is pretty bad i had never been this fucking sick for the past 7 years and now i'm damn it...lucky not kissing no one or else be getting them sick i think i got mom sick cause i hugs her too much =P haha oops my bad...

as i was taking a bath in the frigging midnite, i though of what kenneth said to me about you, you know? i though of how you left me and then i hear things differently, is that true i can't believe what i see but believes how i feel, but how can i trust u more, is all perhaps a lie, idk what to do, but as i was bathing i tho of how i don't wnat a family no more, no marriage, and mostly if i want kids, i will do adoptions, i really don't think is possible to get married and have a happy life after all, why because you're the one that brokes it and i don't care no more... 

nite!!!