idky what the f**k is wrong with me?? i know is something i need some times to think and if u really cares about me just leave me there please...i don't want to talk to nobody.. kathy, spencer and mike i know u guys really care but myself is gone crazy i needs times to figure out what the f**k is wrong with me...no one knows except for myself...thank you for caring everyone but i just don't feel like to talk to anyone or anything at all.. i have to get my mind straight up instead of being lost and i can't tell u guys what is bothering me becuz i know that will just make the problem worst and i think i'm being a whore but i really can't help thinking like that all i know is that i want to fly at least or perhaps to teh heaven... no one knows wtf is wrong with me... if u really care i shouldn't be getting a phone call...i need time to figure this all out by myself...no one can help except for my soul...i just needs time.. sry spencer and kathy if i acted really odd at school...i'm not trying to kill myself..but i just needs times to figure some shits out that's all!! thanks for caring...o shit i'm so screwed for teh phone bill becuz anne said it actually have outcoming and incoming calls shows...damn bitch damn o shit for sure now i failed my history course.... i just got my grade for my essay...i got a 70 on it...o shit i'm so screwed... i just wanna cried.. adn no body cares...life sucks i hate my self being so stupid...i hate myself even be alive...i hate myself for being such a whore...i hate it i hate it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! please don't call me i need times to figure shits out by myself...