this morning my mom woke me up at 8 o'clock in the morning.. oh my god.. it was really cold and i don't like it!! but then i had to get up unwantly... so then i go with her to hao dao (my brother's high school) then we were doing chinese writing wow.. is really hard and i can't believe how much you have to do good at your waist... anyway that was fun and at least i know when to do hard and when to do soft..

and then when i was having lunch you sms me.. and it suddenly makes me shock that you were thinking of me when you going to book city, but i didn't reply you!!!

when there is silent moment, i think of how you're similar toward mike, because you broke his heart, just like he broke my heart.. and so i'm very afraid to be liking you or even having that further steps because i'm scare that i'll be ending up heart broken again.. do you know how long it took me to be somewhat ok from standing back up.. is really hard.. and i'm just afraid of heart breaking and mostly i'm too afraid to be liking someone again especailly you're someone that broke his heart just as i got heart broken.. you is mike and him is me.. him and me got left behind and got heart broen and to afraid of liking someone.. and i don't think there's any posisble of me able to liking someone is so hard when no guarantees.. nothing can guarantee.. and i had learned that when words are words but once a promise is break nothing can fix it.. no matter what.. and i'm not trying to blame you... but right now i really don't think i can be liking you i'm too afraid you will left me behind just as you left me behind.. so right now i'm just walking alone with my shadow at least i know it will back me up and catch me when i fall really hard..

perhaps times can change but right now i don't see myself can be liking you, nothing more but just a friend.. i'm a weaker you can say, but all i'm doing is to protect myself fro breaking hearts, because you have no promises that my heart won't be broken.. no prove, no evident, nothing to make me feel ok to like you, when i know is not ok to like you..

time will make everything better.. and i know for real..!!