talking to an old friend that i haven't talk to for a long time..and suddenly i realized talking to him is like talking to my past.. and we're friends.. but mike and i are not.. so i think dating kills friendship this sucks..if i knew i lost mike as a friend.. i would never never dated him or even be his gf...!! *sigh* but i still despite him for being weak for letting us go for being a liar for being a cheater for being a unbelieveable person..

as i was laying on the sofa today i though of you, like wow we haven't seen each other for almost two week.... i guess you can say i miss us hanging out !!! i wonder what have you been up to.. and wow.. i miss smsing you.. but the decision i had made will not change..!! and for now, i just need to not be so close with you cause i'm really afraid of liking you and then at the end i be heart breaking, so before i know what i can do with my emotions.. please let me think.. for a little bit.... a little bit.. i meant whenever i'm comfortable again.. i mean i'm comfortable being around you.. but i'm afraid.. and it seems as you can't open my heart.. so i don't know let god decide..

so lazy just sleep and eat and watch TV and computer...*sigh* reading and reading