塚愛 <IN LOVE WITH THE DEAD>...

你會為所愛的人...做傻事嗎?

想不到在戲中所說的傻事...

竟然是他為她死...

目的是為了保護對方...

她為他亡...

目的是為了永遠和對方一起...

這樣的結局...

真的令人有點出乎意料...

變態得來又帶有一點淒美...

愛的盡頭真的有這麼偉大嗎?

愛真的能為對方犧牲嗎?

什麼天長地久的愛情...

對我來說簡直就是天方夜譚...

雖然戲中某些驚慄的鏡頭...

真的把我嚇得半死...

但沒有後悔進場看...

很喜歡阿樂說的一番話...

"男人可以為左性而冇愛...

但有D男人...

有左性之後...

亦都開始會有愛...

如果我同你講...

我同你係埋一齊既時候...

話冇愛過你...

根本係冇可能既..."

最後...個第三者知道左自己係阿樂心目中...

原來都佔有一席位...

終於了左件心事...

安心地離開了...

男人同女人...

都可以同一時間地愛上兩個人...

問題只是在於他們怎麼去選擇...

以前會覺得...做人第三者的...

一定是錯的一方...

但其實感情這回事...

真的很難控制...

明明喜歡一個人...

卻抑壓著自己的感情...

不想因為自己而破壞了人家的幸福...

雖然已叫了自己不要去想...

卻想得愈多...

如果可以選擇...

相信沒有人會希望喜歡上一個有了情人的人...

但現實總是令人身不由己...

不由得自己去選擇...

假若有一天...

第三者這回事真的發生在自己身上...

我希望自己也能處理得好...

真的很喜歡這一部戲的感覺...

活著便快樂麼 某某暗戀我 應該笑麼
事實上我亦想過 接受更加好過
不錯　尚有幾個話很愛慕我　便有需要扮出雀躍麼
潛在的陰影未過　

永遠孤單也不怕 是否使你驚訝
你到底有什麼好 逼得我念掛　
路過的 幾多位都不算差　
全城朋友妒忌著我嗎　突然陌生化
我為何流下眼淚　懂嗎 (清楚嗎)　

妒忌著我什麼 說會愛寵我　亂講也可
沒動力去認知我　卻話最喜歡我　
戀愛　為了使晚上可抱著過　為刺激與示威見太多
我愛的　偏偏避我 　

Repeat *

你已經娶了她嗎　掉得走記憶嗎　
但我始終放不低 偏執有罪嗎
受了傷 傷口死不肯結疤　仍然迷信　
終於等到他　遭你的欺詐
我仍然能被妒忌　真的嗎

Finally...

i failed jor my interview lu... 

hahaha...

wuwuwu...

i reali got mad...

coz i dunno why i lost to that two shit shit silly guys...

they are good in english...NO!!!

they know japanese...NO!!!

thay are handsome...DEFINITELY NOT!!! NO...NO...NO!!!

they are neither smart nor charming...

reali dunno why they can attract those interviewers...

maybe probably becoz they are males...

reali hate air steward...

why so many jobs they can do...

they need to fight for the jobs with ours girls...

i dun want to wait for almost half year to have another  recruitment...

also i reali not sure if i could receive another chance of interview after half of a year...

no more target in my life now...

got lost and disappointed...

anyway...

thanks to wawa and chung chung 's sms b4 my interview...

felt calm and relieved after seeing yr msg...

thank you very much...

luv u two forever...

an unhapi month of may...

another unhapi thing happened on me...

misunderstood by baba todai...

scolded by baba todai...

hated his foul language...

hated him now...

made me cry again...

i 'm reali reali reali reali reali unhapi aaaaa...

dun wanna to stay at my hm anymore...

must need to be successful in my jal fa interview on 21/05...

otherwise i can't leave Hk...

i can't leave this hm...

i can't fulfill my dream...

i can't find my way...

lee kwun chung...

u are the one that i love...

so can u support me...

can u help me...

can u stand on the same side as me...

reali unhapi aaa...

my mobile phone has lost...

bought it on 16/12/2006...

lost on 6/05/2007 @ Newport Theatre after 2:17am...

hated the film "Spiderman 3" so much...

how come...must be picked up by someone in th ecinema...

i had to buy another new phone within half of a year...

although i had said that i want the pink one b4...

but if i need to get it in this way...

it won't be hapi...

i want my marie red one return back...

but it probably has been traded out by that shit guy now...

cried for n times in these two days...

reali hv a feeling of "敗家" in my mind for the first time...

lee kwun chung...sori for using yr money...

reli felt guilty abt that...

thanks for yr consolation during these few days...

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