today....really a bad day for me....i lost $100 during i go down to buy things....shit!!
lonely....i don't have this feeling for a long time ....
but it is around me this whole week......
going to school everyday~then sleep during the lessons~then back home after school~
and then looking at the monitor but have nothing do.....no one will care about me~
sometimes i wanna ask GOD and my friends~i am here~but where are you?
at night....i really wanna cry....and.....i cried out a little....
i am happy that i still know how to cry.....ha.....
but thanks 炳愉~fanny~and also iris~
only you really chat with me and treat me as a friend(i hope it's real)~thanks~
actually~i really want to study....but no force to push me~
also now i am so down~i can do nothing to it....
suddenly tonight, remember that in primary school~there was a story~
in the story~a perosn is called "nobody"~and i wanna call myself "nothing"~ha~
i had missed so many people tonight~
the ones who i thought they were my best friends~
the ones who thought i am their best friends~(really has?)
the ones who always listen to my pours~
the ones who always with me when i am sad~
and also the only one i really loved before~
thank you~to all of you~support me and teach me how to be a human being~
even every thing is changed~every thing is different~
but all of you will be in my mind forever~
