尋日因為太過內疚,攪到我好想同上司講”三個字”,呢”三個字”對我嚟講難以啟齒,尋晚臨放工前我好有衝動即刻同佢講,無奈我欠缺應有嘅勇氣,其實我可以忍住唔出聲,但係我始終覺得我做錯,所以形成咗想講又唔想講嘅情況,最後我忍唔到話佢知有d嘢想同佢講但唔知點開口,佢話有嘢就講唔好收埋,因為果一刻我可以離開,所以順勢話算啦,都係聽日先同佢講,尋晚諗咗成晚應該點開口,因為唔講果”三個字”我個心真係好唔舒服,我知道講咗彌補唔到任何過錯,不過至少我個心會好過d,今日我又再一次進入想講唔想講嘅地步,所以成朝心情都好down,最終上司無端端問我最近心情有冇改變過,繼而提及我尋日話有嘢想同佢講,唔講我會繼續內疚,於是拖咗一陣先勉強講出果”三個字”,我一早已預料到佢會問我做乜會講果”三個字”,係佢問果時我即刻話唔好問咁多,只要佢接受就ok,但佢話我唔講原因佢又點可能accept呢!事實上係因為我知道自己嘅缺點係唔識表達自己,因此我prefer隱藏同收埋,我知道我唔講原因係唔應該,不過我真係唔知點講,我驚越講越亂越複雜…
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