今日我又鬧情緒,我嘅心情一下子變得好down,仲忍唔住衝入廁所喊咗出來,話說今日CEO再加上billing team其中一個同事生日,平時一有人生日一大夥人就會出去食餐生日飯,事先冇任何人專登向我提及今日係她們嘅生日,無疑平時傾談時可能有機會講起,但係我冇可能每一樣嘢都清楚記住,直至尋日放工仍然冇人叫我今日唔好帶飯,礙於我知道有生日飯呢個環節,今日我的確冇帶飯,一返到office上司問我”唔係帶咗飯ar ma,今日會出去食飯wor”,當時我諗就算我有帶飯我都冇錯,係佢哋唔通知我會一齊出去食,好啦我當作係佢哋太忙一時忘記notice我,一路做嘢我都唔知佢哋會去邊度食,到lunch time billing team離開office都唔叫我同上司,由於我個位睇唔到出面發生乜事,最後係我上司發覺佢哋已經離開咗,去到discover原來佢哋又開唔夠位,平平淡淡食完餐飯,出奇地佢哋冇行開去買cake,因為之前話過CEO生日會買個cake去conference room一齊切,lunch又冇同CEO一齊食,我同同事以為CEO冇返,點知四點我隱約見到班高層講嘢,然後我上司攞咗個銀包行開咗,我斷估佢哋去買cake,買完返嚟我上司照舊行嚟行去處理佢d任務,點知我去裝水期間轉頭見到成條billing team嘅同事唔見駛,我仲以為佢哋要discussion開會,過多一陣平時同我行山果位同事MSN問我點解唔去conference room一齊切餅,我到receive message果一刻先知道佢哋入咗去conference room,由始至終我唔知道發生乜事,又冇任何人士同我講佢哋會去切餅,一路以來我都feel到冇乜人理會我,經歷埋今次,我完完全全feel到我比人冷落,所以當我知悉後我超級極度想喊,初時我盡量迫自己要堅強d,但後來真係不能再抑壓,惟有衝入toilet大哭一場,你哋可能會覺得係一件小事,但當你代入我嘅身份,相信你哋同樣地感到我的難受,就以最後冇叫我切餅嚟講,生日果兩個人可能會覺得我好囂張,切餅都唔出現,佢哋可能質疑我係咪咁多嘢做,佢哋唔會知道係因為冇人通知我我先唔在場,唉!其中一個仲要係CEO,諗起冇人理會我嘅存在,我真係好痛苦,入咗toilet喊完出來我完全唔想同任何人講嘢,對住件cake我真係食唔落,我嬲佢哋無視我嘅存在,於是變成黑臉,明眼人會睇到我有問題,如果我唔黑臉我會一路喊,我唔想provide懦弱嘅表現,佢哋唔會覺得唔妥,但我覺得好唔妥law。
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