It is almost the end of this day. There are two things i want to write here. The first One is about  my tutor and the second one is about the BBQ meeting tonight.

This morning, i went to Paramatta for tutorial as normal. This time i went so earlier like 9:30 a.m. as i wanted to do some revision before i started my tutorial at 1:00 p.m.    

When i was reading the book, i was almost fall asleep. Suddenly, my mobile was vibrating and i wondered who that was because it said 'Private'. i pressed the green button and said, 'Hello'.

And the person said,' This is the call from Jame's Ann College, just want to tell you that you don't have a English lesson today because your teacher are actually sick.

At that moment i knew taht, i was so happy with it because i can go home earlier and get a rest. In the other side, i think that she is not really sick and staying at home but going

out with her friends instead. i think it is the time to get changes- to the other tutorial.

When i got home, about 1:15 p.m. , i saw most of them were doing preparation for our BBQ meeting tonight. As i know, My uncle Ricky, my father's cousin, and his family will

come to join us tonight. i felt scared with him because he probably would have a talk to me for several hours.                                                                                                              ( Remember one day i went to his house and had a talk with him......  He had talked to me for 3 hours......  =.=!!!  

About 5:00 p.m. , it's time to start our BBQ. i was in a good mood until my uncle R called me by using those name.........    i have never understood why he would like to call me using that name........ when he is happy ??  i don't know ......

Every time he calls me in that name,  i think deeply that people, generally, would not realise that the way or worlds they use would hurt one's heart. They are not able to treat other as they treat themselves, would not able to stand in other one's condition........... most of them would just get the best things for oneself..... 

During BBQ, the adults were teaching me how to think, and i know they think i am just very childish. Actually, i know what to do, how to think.....  i know i am not mature enough in their eyes. They see me in that way perhaps i am always leave out my stuff at home before i go out.  At that moment, i extremely wanted to tell them out loud that i know what to do since i was 14 years old.

My cousins they are very irresponsible, playful, bossy.......    even though they are such a person like that , i still need to be tolerant, patient...... because they are still growing up....

Would i treat them badly ?? i am pretty sure that i would not do that as i think they would be changed by the way i treat them. i believe that life affacts life.....

I need to turn back and to find the real me. Yes..... the real me ..... is very patient, responsible, serious, good-tempered, sincere.