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               我好似失控.....唔知我有無講錯野令佢嬲呢........好想係我.........陪佢....有機會嗎？....唉...

給自己1個理由，為甚麼我破壞左你既原則。並且著迷地等.....原因就在下面.....

                    以為她會遲點點覆........怎樣也是失望而回...........我好像想多了.......想得像有點過火，但要知道既係....我只係微不足道既人......你會閒中比人記得？....面對現實啦.....Foolish.

            嗯.....我比人屌到好鬆化la .......正所謂唔屌唔鬆化ma.........30 個訊息.....比人屌左成個鐘......又話咩唔踢爆.....食屎la....你踢到先算la.......都on撚9.....咩好撚聰明ar.......亞哥衰我10倍...你知咩？仆街....佢仲大單野過我la.....又唔見你話佢....我知 佢識賺錢嗎.......我？.....仆街+廢柴一個la.......明既明既.....你估我唔想做野咩....問你凸........以為自己好撚醒....我仲成日拎撚住個電話ar？ 你盲ga 撚樣？........又唔見你話我成q用拎住本書.on 撚9

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今日收到佢sms....但1個only.....唉....點解ar.......我send 左2個比佢.....都唔覆........明天8點.....哈....開盤la要.....

                我今日發生過d咩唔想寫....因為我好無心情....2個鐘前.....我去左訓覺....當訓覺個陣我未試過咁嬲、咁恨我屋企....我唔明...抹枱....未抹完....可以一句屌你老味識唔撚識ga你？.....Good ar 都係好good ar 我都唔知發生咩事.....我已經唔出聲....都要比人屌.......

                我未試過嬲到自己失控.....隻右手可以係現在痛到pk...傷晒........由我訓覺個刻知道.....屋企...對於我黎講...廢的.....只係比我訓覺only....對於我來說....它不是實物.....我覺得已經不需要.....起碼我知道....對於佢地黎講...我讀到中7....原來係讀屎片........對於我個位"好老豆"黎講.....我連禽獸都不如.......最起碼佢地對隻貓仲好過我.....當然，包括我既"好家姐"........而我大佬永遠都係叫我幫佢打report .......呢個屋企真係Good ar

                我失控.....我崩潰.....我好多時候想send sms 比佢......但我無做到.........我好想同佢講.......我好想係佢面前....崩潰.....最起碼....我最尾都無做到.....因為我既想法就係.....可能佢同緊他一起.....我唔想阻住佢....我份人好矛盾....我唔知應唔應該唔找她....但呢2日我都會經常望著個電話看看會唔會有訊息....當然，也是失望...

今日我好想找她，但也無做到.....還是等自己無事.....之後，輕微淡寫咁....笑住同佢講會好點....是嗎？...連我自己也不知道.....

                琴日係銀座....唔見晒d jack 既扭蛋機...失望...但miss 話我知..佢個度有個jack 好靚....遲d找找miss sin.....我幾時再會同你面對面傾計呢？....我不敢想像。....趕左份功課未ar？ 加油

                今日唔知記得做咩.only 知好眼訓...我個邊真係無原味so..比唔到小泡你la~~lunch 季軍戰4C 贏左。冠軍戰星期1....7S vc 7A...之後同涼粉去左library....溫得2個chapter 但仲有d唔識.......

                返到屋企.....on 撚9 ga？ 講話賺到錢請你去食野...又話9我....你無錢咩？要等你有錢...咁貴d 未要80歲....屌你老味....好心考順下.....過左1日都可以話9我....好撚掂ar 你....仆街以後咩都唔撚講.....屌你...凸...好撚火ga.....隔左日你都可以屌....係未on9 ga？要我日日比你話.......無撚野既.....得.......我會快d走ga la 等我啊

                睇黎我應該再次習慣她有一排唔找我啦。唉.....今日佢覆完我...我都唔知再唔再send....因為我....都唔知....ar><"...我今日不停想.....想......想.......那一刻停留就好啦...但無可能.......好想捉住....但無能為力......我唔知.....看見她，我不懂修飾自己的說話。厚臉皮的我..看見她也不敢正視她.....起碼自己每講1句野都無望她....

她昨日所說的話是真嗎？不會找我傾計？.....但昨日後我們又知道大家一點點.........

                避一排？需要嗎？以前我唔會理.....現在站於她的角度...我唔好她亂....空白....日記may be 唔打一排....但我又唔想....好矛盾....如果我做到........銀包同冷衫相信會陪住我....今日著起件冷衫...不停想起.....如果可以留住昨天....我肯用1生換左個2個鐘.....又或者.....我說多了.....不知說甚麼啦.....走

               嘈完未ar？煩、煩、煩....好想打比佢....但我還是自己訓覺...AR..好矛盾....你真係仆街啦區生..