Everything is fine but my mind inside my mind ( what dose it mean? the answer is ? )

When I pick up an English book in hopes of learning more vocabulary items,  something always keeps lingering in my mind -- a poor hkcee result.

I know I should accept it but it's hard.

It's really unbearable for me to blaming myself.

but I keep doing so.

Frustration encroaches my everthing including my passion toward English.

Please, stop doing so.

Please, stop wondering my english.

Please, stop trampling on my wound.

Maybe I should take a test to prove myself.

yes. I do.