Everything is fine but my mind inside my mind ( what dose it mean? the answer is ? )

When I pick up an English book in hopes of learning more vocabulary items,  something always keeps lingering in my mind -- a poor hkcee result.

I know I should accept it but it's hard.

It's really unbearable for me to blaming myself.

but I keep doing so.

Frustration encroaches my everthing including my passion toward English.

Please, stop doing so.

Please, stop wondering my english.

Please, stop trampling on my wound.

Maybe I should take a test to prove myself.

yes. I do.

A poor result doesn't mean that I should bawl.

A long road dosen't mean that I should be fearful.

A long distance between my beloved and me doesn't me that I should feel lonely.

Anyway. It's my destiny!

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I vented my anger on my pillow and kept asking myself what had happened to me but to no avail.

I didn't want to cry and pretended that I was okay about everything in front of me.

Virtually, I was wearing a mask during this week in hopes of letting my family and relatives know that Bonnie would not be frustrated, even though she had tripped over a big and tough stone.

My tears kept rolling in my pair of eyes till my mum gave an opportunity to me.

Then, my tears were out of control and streamed down on my cheek.

I knew it's my last chance.

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Destiny doesn't mean everything as this word actually is just created by us.