For this few days...

I felt like I"m a Freak or mayb a NERD

Kinda keeping myself in my OWN world..

Whateva I've done or do..

Mum is not gonna agree with me..

Never though of  telling my dreams about my Future JOb..

whenever i open my mouth she will make me Shut my mouth..

Why?

this is what happen..

Open my mouth telling something and she will ask me Shut Up,

Impossible..

She might be Dead Beat after working?

I don't know..

All i wanna have is FREEDOM..

I wanna "fly" over  the sky..

But in High School..

there's only a Word

BUSY

That's what i call..

I wanna be success but i don't want to have stress

I'm willing to work hard for it..

This few days have been suck..

I wanted to write this feeling on..

But i can't because of busy studying

Well,for the 1st time of sitting the March test,

Got back my History marks..

I know it wasn't enough to please my mum

But i've tried very hard with all my efforts..

to balance my time for study and my time for Hockey competition

Sometimes I really felt that this is too much..

All I can do is just Shut myself?

I don't wanna be like that..

I can't understand why i can act nothing infornt of my friends

although I'm not happy

Smiling and laughing for some stupid not-funny-jokes

I've no emotions

No anger

but just plain..