i believe its been a long time that i havent typed qooza

today.i went to ipsc for gun shooting course-.-i saw him there.the person i dislike,and im doing the thing that i dislike.

after that.i went to find a *old* friend

thought many things happened before

glad that nothing changed.

still happy and gag:P

just last night

someone told mke that

she would give me a chance 

to date her again

i just cant decide

what should i actually do

take this chance or not.

hell hole

excepy for minecraft 

i actually did nth this holiday

just found myself sucks so hard

to the person whos enjoying his trip

miss u so much

though u might not watch this/notice this

miss u so badly

bro

hvaent been always waiting for someone's fb message 

she seems never reply

but she still does

just

seldom

can anyone fly me to the moon?

 Today 8.5.2012

death of my grandma 

i dont really know what to say

she didnt leave in a sudden

i though i was prepared 

i didnt...

i knew this news at lunch time

i cried somehow in class

luckly no one notice that

thx nicole and bonnie...

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after school 

i take 25 and 8P to CW

with Marco....:)

im starting to find something to distract me 

from think about her

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i reached CW 

have meeting

i told michelle this 

just did expect she told others 

Nothing bad at all....

just we lose a meeting chance again

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Lenda came 

we chated alot 

i cried really hard 

after the chat....i feel better:)

at all thats the fact 

nicole so true:P

thank you lenda 

thank you for supporting

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back to home 

glad to see many ppl cares

thank you all

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 Here is the fact...i really cant take scout anymore.doesnt mean by i dont like scout,the truth is

.the kinda main teacher?(i dont know how to call that) ...he is going really **inch**

and me as a PL and my APL and i think part of the old members dont really like him.

that sucks so hard

i rather being scold but not being **inch** by him

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today i really had a lots of great fun

at SSGC 

meeting bonnieXD uw miss her alot

Elaine as well:D(thanks for her presentXD)

i got a tatoo on my arm,james as ell

and looks really cool!!!

but i got no time to make it back to school for practicing the song

really harsh....got me 45 minutes to get to CWB from SSGC WTF

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yea decided to choose X3 Music and X1 Econ

but about X2

im still thinking 

none of the subject really fits me at all:(

  可能把這事記下是最好的方法去忘記這事

9月13日記之

仲記得我第一次同妳傾計係響2月14號，我Facebook既近況到。我記得我個近況係關於'who can be my valentine.' 我仲記得你話會送個朱古力俾我食。跟住在下一次同妳講既時候係響4月1號愚人節，如果無fake到馮媛施既話我相信我都唔會識到妳。記得個日我問妳受唔受溝，你既反應出乎我所料，你居然係咁話「我受呀 我受呀」。老實講我嗰吓除左shock左之外，同時我都笑左。跟住我地傾傾下傾左去搵日請你食朱古力，傾到最後我inbox左個朱古力俾你。跟住我地就開始傾計。去到4月27號我第一次同你傾電話，傾左兩個鐘就約左出街睇血紅帽。跟住下一日，我就同左你出去睇。第一眼見到你，覺得你好靚女同埋好貪玩既好女仔。雖然隔左成個月，我都仲記得我話過要送朱古力俾你食，我送左俾你，但係你好似唔記得有尼件事，但係anyway，我見到你開心既時候，我都不由自主地開心埋一份。跟住我地就開始好開心咁傾計。去到有一日，我約左班同學去仆公踢波，咁岩你響隔離吹口琴，所以我就叫左你過你睇我踢波。第二日我真係好開心見到你直係黎睇我踢波。我記得我果日買左四條朱古力一齊食，我個frd仲話我地既對話好有爆炸性。去到你走既時候，我唔知醜到企上張櫈到對住你大叫「Elaine Ho bye bye」。宜家諗翻起覺得好傻，但係為左你，係值得嫁。之後，我睇到你響msn status 到打 [jedeneiwaitakuderenbohuiranneiku]，我問你係咩尼，你就叫我估，雖然估錯左幾次，但係最後都估中左，「值得你為她哭的人，不會讓你哭。」我唔知我係咪感動到你既心，只係知道你好感動，好開心。跟住你仲認捚我做'BBF'。我知你原意係想話BFF，不過是但啦，尼個錯未必係壞事。跟住我就問你，你係值得我為你哭的人，你會不會讓我哭？我敢肯定你係答「不會」。Anyway我而經為你哭了，你現在也都不理我了。甚麼約定，全都是假的。下一次出街嘅時候係7月1。我清楚記得我嗰日係約左你11點嚮時代等，你果日11點先起身。算啦，我無所謂，因為我當你係我BBF。等你足足等左個半鐘先出現。不過嗰日都行得好開心既。我記得我話過要作首歌俾你，雖然我其實已經作好，但係我只係無動力將首歌寫落紙，因為我無能力寫首歌俾一個遺忘左你，唔理你既人，一個你視為知已既人。再去到下一次見你，係我臨上機同你去書展。嗰日，你發嬲，點解？我遲左半個鐘。老實講我見到你因為咁嬲我，我果下堅係燥。乜男等女就得，女等男就唔得？你嗰日出時代，我等足你個半鐘我都可以笑笑口咁對你，你等我半粒鐘就發我老皮？唔係丫你，我臨走都要咁對我，堅係好hurt。
不過都好，去完一個無野講既書展之後，佢總算係願諒左我。我老實講，真係嬲佢唔落，讚哂我同佢都係BBF，要嬲一個同我咁好既人，我做唔到。我當然見到佢無嬲我，當然即刻開心哂啦。臨走前最後一日我同佢傾得好開心。去登記前，仲腥左個千字文既88msg俾佢，臨上機之前仲同緊佢傾電話傾到老師鬧先肯收。傾到咁既地步，我都唔覺得有咩問題，我覺得只不過係一個朋友唔捨得另外一個朋友既表現姐。一到澳洲，我就即刻搵wifi hotspot諗住同佢whatsapp。只可惜，我一個到搵唔到。直到我去到Farmstay。我響果到大堂搵到有wifi，當然等一時間同佢報平安，我宜家先諗翻起我居然係同佢報平安，而唔係同我呀媽報。可能，佢嚮我心目中既地位已經係最高，時時刻刻都係響到諗住佢。老實講，我響澳洲到為左佢，特登去買左張local 3G sim card。因為知道homestay 無wifi 無電腦，所以就用左30幾蚊澳幣（大約$300）買左張500mb 既plan，就係為左同佢whatsapp。很傻吧？其實都係因為我發覺生命好似無左佢唔得。我成日既活動就係上堂同埋同佢whatsapp 。我一去到澳洲之後幾日開始，我都會訓訓下窄醒，我好記得每一晚都係當地時間12點同3：30窄醒（即香港時間10點同1：30）。點解會窄醒？原因好簡單，係因為10點係佢上完maskman翻屋企既時間，因為知道佢實好悶，所以會窄醒同佢whatsapp。而1：30就係知佢晚晚都會失眠，所以會再窄醒陪佢陪到佢瞓為止。星期六，佢失蹤左，搞到我好擔心，係咁打電話翻香港問佢啲朋友知唔知佢係邊，但係無人知道。只可惜我仲係澳洲，做到既野唔多。唯一可以做既就係等。我記得果晚我完全訓唔着，成晚都響到擔心佢，諗佢會響邊到，成晚響到睇手機，check whatsapp。好彩，佢星期日終於都覆我whatsapp。原來佢同父母去左第到，無話我知，搞到我好擔心。

5月2日記之
過左半年……我特然想繼續記翻低呢件事

繼續翻半年前寫到嗰到:
嗰一個係澳洲嘅最後一個星期 ，我有個演奏要做…farewell party彈路小雨…我係彈鋼琴，張恩諾做伴奏，每一晚我都係到吹丫張恩諾去練琴…吹嘅時候我就同佢傾電話…就係咁就過左好多好多日…跟住我買左對介指…仲有好多野…翻香港。一翻到黎第二日就走左去搵佢@@死傻仔……佢第一次放哂啲頭髮落黎…好成熟…但係之後有好多野都變左…我有去拍拖，溝女，但係都唔維持得好耐… at all我個心得佢一個… 之後有一日…我痴左線…同佢表白………結果好明顯…唔得…佢仲講左好多好絶好絶嘅野。過左兩個月…好翻啲啲關係，我又係左聯校:)我約左佢出黎溫書。12月31日…我，佢,佢個friend,Joe都去左間starbucks到溫書…老實講我唔係好敢同佢面對面講野…去到好晏先肯…10-6溫完了…去倒數…你可以話我痴左線…我居然最後唔係同佢倒數，我同左Joe Joe倒。
好多野，放唔低就係放唔低………去到3月我寫左封信俾佢…裡面全部都係我啲心低話…，佢都明白我…佢俾左個機會我為佢去演奏我作俾佢嗰首歌…
嗰一日我收到一封信，佢嘅信…我也將首歌完滿咁，演奏了…
演奏後，心頭大石彷彿放下了，再看信…:小火花擦起了，卻燒不起。放開也未夠狠心，對不起。 我睇過嗰一段心聲…我個心不再痛了…我像明白了一切似的…放下了………
好想講一句…謝謝你讓我學到那麼多……

我真的很像你…也曾經很愛妳 my bbf