ai...i want to change my living style ...today..waited until afternoon... went to library and studied the permit ....god......didnt wanna read it at all....while thinking the story behind it.....i know one day ..i gotta get through it ..i know ..i really know ...i need to study harder ...cant make my mom disappointed ....ai....maybe she had not talked to me coz of my laziness, stupidness, unconsicousness....etc....ai ..i know ga la..i would drive as soon as possible ..i try my best la ...cant lose face ma...be great ar ma ... got ya.....but need to pass the freaking permit first ...the questions were juts so tricky ....plz ,god ...give me power, energy, motivation...i MUST pass it,i promise~

 ps: i think i am really americanlized ...cant remember which day it s ...one day ,went to the shoe stores,,like a foot locker or sth...omg,,that saleswoman s so incredibly, unbelivably,tremendously hot....she s just so hot ....waaaaa...i never had that feeling b4.....what happened ....had i really grown up ...oh..god....perfect body....that made me didnt notice her appearence...but i think she s quite cute ga ...at ..deep blonde hair ...like a latin-mexican mixed girl...i guess la ......if i was brave enough and i had a car...i would definitely ask her to go out ....oh...no..i guess i didnt have control anymore ..i couldnt force myself not to fall in love .....mom also said probably it s the time la ...ai......i'll see