yesterday was like a disaster to me, sth hv happened to me which killed me out , it s like going to hell.....facing all darkness....every face that i saw was like ghost...non-human being...gesus.....went to Bring recycling to catch up my community service with reli reli bad, sad mood....arrrived there at like two forty, he- allen sighed me up at 2 to 5... then i became much more active, enthusiastic....i was like totally switched off my personality or sth, actively asked Allen wht kinda task i could help him...then he got me sth to do....needless to say..coz i wanna concentrate on my stuffs/ work...i wanna hv things to do....if i got nth to do,, i .....became so upset...n depressed....sigh......thatz who i m, i guess...dun wanna think too much things on my head.....just wanna take emotion out.....i mean when u got sth to do, times went off quickly....it s always true.....once got everything done, i um....talked with allen, n thomas....n every guy i could find to talk to.....just be open, like b4.....it s a reli great conversation with allen......talking abt food stuff...i was with him on the side while he was hving his delicious dinner, he thought,lol......which was a mexican food... called 'chili berdy' ...like a taco....he ah put some pork in it and just gobbled up/devour ravenously it like a wolf swallowing a sheep...i was like...wow......little shocked...n he said he cooked it by himself....talking to ppl just made me relaxing, less depressed.......and then looked out the sky......it turned out to be snowing.....when i was standing out by the door n looking out, the view was amazing...snowing around......but i felt more sober n sober, heavier n heavier,, like a thousand pounds of pressure squash on my shoulder.....when snow felt across my whole body........man, i cant hold on my emotion any more.....my tears just flowed out immediately....non-stop tears kept coming out from eyes, falling down across my face along with my nose, my mouth.....it s reli ironic for me seeing this happen.....sigh......wth....images gave me seemed like my god was teasing me....... kept crying, crying,crying because of one girl.......i did feel regretful of wht i hv done to you......i felt reli bad to you.......i just wanna say SORRY to you....my lovely dear.....if i could have one more chance, i wish i could love you once again~

 My lovely snow princess.........where are you......................................................................................................

snow,snow,snow,snow,snow,snow,snow,snow,snow,snow,snow,snow,snow,snow,snow,snow, i miss you..........................................................................................................................................................