heahhahahahhahehaheaheaheheheahha... why am i so stupid? why am i so freaking stupid ? what the fuck........how come i have been acting like a jerk., idiot, dumbass,numskull, or a wicked, evil, sinful, sappy, skeptical bastard......jesus christ....唔得,以前聰明,醒目,自信既我要返來啦....eventually, lol, damn, holy crap, michigetda.... but one thing i hv gota admit is when u fall in love, u dun know wht ya re doin', wht ya re sayin', wht ya re reactin'....it s like playing a roller coaster,  up n down, sumtimes going up, sumtimes gonig donw, it s just amazing....dun know how to describe better than tat,lol- - 愛情是盲目的,原來是真的,會令人失去方寸,愛情會出軌的.....damn!!! it makes me totally lose all of my control, determination, smartness, intelligence, aggresiveness, ambitiousness ='=.....instead being an.....um.....well, prolly should i act like a jealous guy........

     anyway... mb it s time to let go....becoz i find out sth last night... if the gal likes u .....she 'dnt talk to another boy after talking with you.....ai....so sad...anyway, anyway...whtever, i 'm tired to think of everything what it has been happening in these two months.......i admit i did sth wrong... like i had been cold to her  a short period of time....i dun know y i would act like that.....mb i should say coz i want her to care more abt me......i start to recognize that might be impossible, impracticable, infeasible, ideal, unrealistic to hv a gal step out and do sth to make u happy, pleased........expecially for those traditional gals....omg....

     i know i could have make the situation much better,, i didnt mean to make it worse, really....i know i could make the relationship with her better...o_o

    anyway....just let it be....let it flow up, let it fly away.....it s sth becoming to be history when u look back in future.....how sad