今日成日留o左係屋企到做功課,做做下phy果時,我覺得人生好沉悶,好煩,好似令我抖唔到氣咁....
好唔想讀書,個頭好痛好痛,唔知我係咪患o左抑鬱呢,日日都好似唔開心咁,日日都好累,日日都好唔想生存...
之後我因為一d好少ga事同蝦餅嘈,收o左線之後我真係好唔開心,好想咩都唔理,收埋自己,因為我冇勇氣去死...
所以選擇逃避,不過理智話俾我聽,我唔可以咁做,所以我打返俾蝦餅,同佢一齊討論返件事,果一刻我喊o左...
喊唔係淨係因為呢件事,之後我同佢ga問題終於解決o左,到o左夜晚食飽飯沖埋澡,打o左俾蝦餅傾o左陣,我覺得佢好似有
d唔同,唔知係咪覺得我好煩呢,佢知我唔鍾意打機,所以連佢打緊機都話冇,其實咁樣我仲介意...
我只不過係想佢打機果時聽到我講野,同埋可以應到我,乜我真係咁霸道咩,我同佢討論過自殺呢個問題,不過最後都冇結論,究
竟點樣我先可以冇咁辛苦,我終於明白想死果d人ga心態,可惜我冇勇氣去做,我都唔可以咁自私... |