我不知道自己在做甚麼，

不，我是不知自己一直在做甚麼……

  你知道原來自己一直所做的事也得不到認同的感覺嗎？

不知你知道與否，因為每對「認同」也有不同的價值觀，

但對我而言，就像否定了我的人生，

否定了我努力。

  如果在你的心中，你覺得我只是一個普通人，

那真的對不起呢，恐怕這又是我的錯，

大概是我不夠好吧！

  但我覺得自己很努力。

我是一個沒有樣子，沒有身材，沒有才能的人，

能做的只有努力(雖不是十分努力)，

奢望自己能不輸給天才。

  上天甚麼也沒有賜給我，

但我仍不自量力地嘗試反抗命運。

我知道有些事是永遠也不會改變，

但我一直在奢望，在堅持，

不論我說了多少遍辛苦，

但我依然堅持下去，原因只有一個：

就是希望別人肯定我。

我不是愛受到別人稱贊，

我愛的是因別人的贊賞而產生的認同。

  其實沒多的，我要的只是一句話，

「我知道其實你已經很努力了。」

  聖誕快樂！不，好像晚了一點，

現在應該說 Merry Boxing Day！

(甚麼？有這樣的嗎？是拳擊日/盒子日快樂嗎？)

  唉，這個聖誕竟然是把自己關在家中，

真是的！

不過，我這些單身人士都注定要跟家人過，

哪像其餘兩個 J 字頭的女生……

  更糟的是，

到現在我還未看 Harry Potter and the Death Hallows 呢！

So sad……

(雖然人家已看了書，但由從前起，看電影的重點是去看帥哥、美女嘛！)

  不過我的心已飄到別處了。(變得真快呢，女人！)

就是早前在 Facebook 上 post 過的 Black Swan。

之前都不知香港甚麼時候會上映，

因為當時就連外國也未播放。

但現在，Black Swan 已在外國上映，

而且還得了很多獎，受到各方好評。

這使我想看到欲望和希望提高，

因為這代表香港會上映嘛！

  果然，在Yahoo電影上一查，

發現了 Black Swan 會在 2011年2月24日在香港上映！

香港人的效率還挺快的嘛！

真的十分期待，

有人會跟我去看嗎？

放心，它不是只關於芭蕾舞，

實際上它是一部以芭蕾舞團作故事背景的心理驚悚片。

大家不妨考慮一下吧！

  First of all, I want to say sorry,

because there's something wrong with my keyboard,

so I can't use Chinese to communicate with you.

I'm sorry for letting you to suffer this,

as you may not want to read anything involve English.

  I've been hesitating for a long time about whether I should still write anything in here,you know,

since the tragedy which I've mentioned above happened.

Despite that, I still want to share something with you which I found in a video,

because I think I shouln't be so egoistic for what I've gained.

  It's just a sentence that formed by some simple words,

but the meaning in it is huge.

The reason why I want to share this it's because I think this is a very inspiring sentence.

I think everyone should get to know this great principle,

and to mark it in your heart with something no one can ever wash away.

This is my purpose for writing this quite boring passage.( I'm not good at writing!)

  "Winners are willing to do what losers won't."

Wondering who wrote this when I first read it.

Maybe we all knew the similar meaning of it,

but we couldn't arrange our thoughts into a simple sentence like this.

(I'm one of these)

We all know we should work as hard as we can,

but we don't even know why, cause we've never thought about it.

However , after reading this sentence,

we realise what's the things we've been doing for,

we can also have a lesson, an important lesson.

  Hope you and I can use and remember this sentence,

this principle no matter how old we are. = )