So down today

more sad nad worried than during exam

cry cry cry

crying all the hours

i know that i hv done bad in my exam, extremely bad

all the failures come in f.3, and causing me very LOW self-esteem

i deny that i am lazy

but i'm not hard-working enough, and my studying method is not efficient

as i know, all the 12 subjects must not have a good result

some may even have a high chance to fail

WHAT A SHAME

the week after christmas holiday will be horrible

i predict it, and i prefer it

lord plz bless my ranking is not out of 40

but it really, i'll only hv a little surprise cause i know

this's the result of not preparing well

THIS'S ALL MY FAULT

i'm not a well-studying person

not like gloria, christy, helen...

i'm have no an ultimate, great dream or direction about future

like my trumpet sister, doctor cherise n J...

my future road is full of mist and fog

i dunno where to go

ys u may say that i hv some potentials in some aspects

but not having talent or big interest at all

LOSING

sometimes i may encourage myself actually i think

I'M THE MOST SPECIAL ONE IN THE WORLD

no one knows who i really love

no one knows who i really hate

no one knows wt's in my head, in my brain

n no one knows i hv created something to support me

but the above can't cover the fact of i'm a DUM

so glad i hv gd fds, i'm feel warm with them

sometimes i may think it's fine to hv some failures coz i got fds' supprt (not support, but some kind of it)

but reality give me the answer IT"S NOT THE TRUTH

i'm a person who is deeply affected by achieves

i want to catch up but it seems useless

anyway i need to use the christmas to reflect

the result is mainly about my preparation time on exam

NOT DETAIL  TOO ROUGH

i know i always write things negative

here i need to thanks all of u whatever u hv done to me,,

2 sisters,, jade,, joyce,, sylvia,, cherise,, vanessa,, chudai,, melody,, gloria,, christy x2...

THANK YOU