...so confusion ,..just like out of my control..做自閉青年?!唔錯喎..but it so lonely..i look forward to learning in the us..

今朝早又返左去,但都係冇開聲pray,我始於唔敢...then go back to sch ,it's hardly to understand(account) ,damn it ,i cannot handle that..

start to think i'm 好冇用,many things i don't know ,又唔敢去做,又唔敢去ask...好廢..sometimes I wanna SCREAM OUT LOUD ....i'm too tired..can somebody help me to solve all of my problems?

i wanna left all things behind & ran away..unhappy,how long would it maintain ?????

琴晚,12點幾訓..點知佢係度行雷閃電...搞到我攤左好耐先訓到..

等陣返教會..

hey..long time no cccccc....之前洗機,咩都冇晒..個blog都冇理..ha,it's ok now..

之前個camp都幾得ga..just like靈命更新..now come back to教會,the feeling is not bad..
個camp..其實之前,朱sir未問我地去唔去camp就幫我地報左名..so,唔多想去,又覺得好無奈..又唔知去到有咩做喎..

the first day真係悶到爆ga,then the next day morning,(最正係呢part呀..).牧師幫我地睇異像,最初我都猶豫左好耐..究竟我行唔行出去畀牧師睇呢..因為我自問..我接觸 神唔多,我唔知牧師會同我講d咩,但個刻我真係唔知我將來ga路會係點..so我都係有出..我有2個pictures,第一個係話有隻鷹flying in the sky..見到周圍都係田地..佢話我太多憂慮..咩都可以憂一餐,衣食住行,學業,屋企,等等..(真係中左..試問自己,一個人愈大,憂慮自然愈多ga啦..right?!)...then到第2個..佢話我係 上帝頸上ge一條珍珠頸鏈..神係好珍惜我,係好看重我..只要我更愛神...我真係好有感受..神真係知道我個心諗緊咩....記得個時一行出去,牧師一同我講野,我就喊左出黎..(都好耐冇喊過)..感謝主呀,amen..跟住我地就返房,返到去即刻扲聖經黎睇..係馬太福音6:25-34...到左e家我都會扲黎睇..(你地都睇下啦..^^)...之後,我又睇到本營刊個cover又係有隻鷹係度ga..magic呀..雖然呢個camp有開心有唔開心,但最重要係我有得著ma..thank you god..

其實有時都幾憎自己ga..又冇自信,又細膽..咩都唔敢去做..錯失好多機會,求主加添我自信心啦..amen..

呢幾日一朝早都有返去pray..不過柳紅同panda係咁咁我開聲to pray...it' to difficult to me..i'm scared..please donnt ask me to do that...
i donnt want to have the LCCI exam...好後悔..if ignore this one..i am very happy..but........

好想learn lots of thingssss...paino,dance,...ha,琴日返教會learn how to 打鼓..好正..
時間無多..但好多野未做呢..........give me more time ,can u?

一個好simple ga question...如果你唔開心,你會做d咩,令自己開心返?!

其實. 放咁多假.....唉..而家,個個都係度搵工..哈,我係咪應該慶幸自己唔使咁做?!當我地傾緊計個陣,好似格格不入咁,我唔想咁呀...我地ga距離好似遠左好多..我都唔想咁呀..我地之間會唔會冇野好講ga...我亦都唔想係咁呀..好似冇晒d fds,我超級唔想咁呀..點算好?!第時我返黎都有可能會咁...唔想..
點先可以日日都好開心咁過?
我成日都會做錯野..我會做錯..因為我唔知咩係岩..

Her feelings she hides. 
Her dreams she can't find. 
She's losing her mind. 
She's fallen behind. 
She can't find her place.

我唔想再咁啦..好辛苦........................................

琴日同今日都去左library study....好攰呀...呢2日..勁係度做數...做左好多...但...account are very difficult...唉....唔識..who can help me??...then i will very happy and thank you...之後ge星期六,日都要溫.....add oil~

唉...我發覺我愛上library...因為libra好quiet....我唔想嘈呀...岩岩一返到home...又同我細佬嗌交....好煩呀....唔想留係home...我會死ga...但...我唔想同屋企人關係會差...點算好?點算好?...唉..................

今日...黃色..紅色...黑色暴雨警告都出晒黎....但..學校好衰..唔比我地放...

then...我地11人(我,雪雪,joey,wing,cici,豬ming,牛,屎,達叔,昌叔,傻仔)...一齊出去沙田(5pm)...一齊去睇"凶兆"...好好睇呀..但都有好多驚嚇場面....我勁嗌....哈哈..我都未試過睇戲嗌ga...都好開心...then...睇完..一出戲院..哈哈..好玩呀...落大雨..我重要同wingwing一路行(又跑)一路笑囉.....then我右面係濕左好多ga...哈哈..好好玩...唔知我地幾時又玩過呢?!....

我又想去睇"鬼域".....又嗌過...好耐冇嗌啦....嗌出黎係好舒服ga...將d唔開心ge野發洩出黎...