baby
i know i am not being good enough
you are always being very caring and supportive to me

it is my fault not giving confidence to you.
honestly, i did not forget isabel totally.
she is a very important person to me.
but failure to be with her gave me a depression.
i have been struggling years to get through this until now.
struggling about my life, family, love, career, study.
but i would like to choose you to be the one, with me, to walk out this.
To start a new life.

i am very touched by the heart to heart talk we had, the rain we have ran. 
i know you need a person to be in your heart, you need a shoulder to lean on, if you do not mind , i would like to be your sofa.

whatever we end up, i want to give all the best to you and give you a happy time, to take you out from your pond. you are my princess.

p.s. i love you and i cannot fall asleep and fuckingly miss you. was eating a mcdonald double meal by myself, hope you can be my side to share the burden of my stomach. hope you can appear in fornt of my eyes instead of appearing when i closed my eyes. want to call you so much. but i wsh you have a nice dream. If my love with you is a dream, a good one, i think i never need to wake up.