I hate myself

I love you so much but I cannot believe you ...

 I want  to leave you but ..................

I need you,,I miss you , I love you ...

so ,, I am so hate myself like  a super pig ...

with study,, may be I can focus on others side ...

 if I can let you go, may be I would not painful too much

Just ....... a year ...

 may be ... ...

but ...

but.........

I  have not to leave you ...

hate myself again ....

 can you feel it ?